Monday, July 26, 2010
so long never write blog..
Life have been pretty good and smooth...
relationship with family still a bit weird..but overall its more or less settled..
smiles smiles...
i bought clothes..=P
have to be in a strict muscle toning exercise...little tummy is appearing..hehex...
=D
2:32 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Thursday, July 22, 2010
super duper tired!!!!arrrrhhhh...
cui seriously damn cui...
zZzZzZzZzZ...
as long as i lace my butt somewhere...i can knock out in 10s...
so..properly..
ya..i am on the verge of slping after u read this...
zzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ...
10:35 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Monday, July 19, 2010
tired tired tired...
now is more tired den before...
glad to see the rainbow..i have got the courage not to run away le..have face the fact and punishments..
have been doing housework..tired..wake up early early..cos dun want mama to do it..later she xinku...but now i fall sick with a flu..sad...just took medi..cook porriage to bring go work..so can rest more...
i got free pau from colleague..haha..=X tan chi gui...
submitted my application for SP, haven send in all the documents..tmr last day...i dun have my birth cert with me...arrrrhhh... =( hehex...die die...tonite need to bring laptop home to settle all the documents..need to scan all of it..arrrrhhh...
hopefully next year i can study uni..
10:52 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Sunday, July 11, 2010
yesterday was a duo bbq day for me..i have since increase my carbon footprint by a lot..=(
still it was lots of fun with env peeps..
yet a mixture of stuck and symptoms of vomiting...
wasn't really on good terms with my dad..but yesterday was a little bit better i tink...but i was so afraid that i just stick myself to the environment club side..
and for the 1st ever..we manage to finish 9/10 of the food!!! *clap clap* looks like we did not buy much...have to thank alcina 1st..alot of things she prepare for me..i did not..sorry~ still thanks a lot..
did not take much photos as we were all immerse in the happiness of fun...yet..we ended on a nice note of photo taking sessions.. =D
happy birthday to shi min and pei xuan...
it was indeed enjoyable with explosive ice root beer and 7 up, plus scaling tongs and BBQ marshmallow..and also goodie food..clap clap...thank all for coming.. =D
7:39 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
i just change a nice blog song...so enjoy..
its from a anime call myself yourself..very nice your should catch it..very short only 13 episodes..
i have been very tired this few days and i have realise that is what i have been saying..no replies from bayer..saddening..no time to go check out the courses in aus...arrrrhhh..tuition kids driving me nuts..lol...but i rly enjoy teaching them though...
after so many incidents that have been happening..i realise to have grown stronger..no longer crying tat often i wonder its that good or bad..learn to forget all about it and walk on in life..
i want to thank everyone!!! who teach me to be strong...to joysi, to shang ming, to bear, to godgor..
thanks for being there..and scolding me when needed..true friends scold you and do not side you when you are in the wrong...
i am not out of emo though..but out of suicidal thoughts i hope..but..i have flashes in my brain jumping mrt track whenever i see the train coming towards me..i have always pulled myself back...and a few other sadistic thoughts when i am in the kitchen alone..
i am being so abnormal...but i wish to be back on the normal track and get on with life...
enjoy the violin, i fell in love with this song..
2:33 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Monday, July 5, 2010
i was inspired to write a blog post ytd..but apparently i forgot what i wanted to type..
i was so busy with so many things..i should have write it down..a slice of life...probably if i remember it i will write it here...
i have been a zombie, a living one..yesterday was sunday and all i did was teaching tuition...u can never imagine!!!! 30questions of decimals and fractions from 1030am to 2pm, and 50 questions on fractions since 630pm to 1030pm with no calculator and answer sheet to help me out!!!indeed torturous when your student dun listen...i had no choice but to threaten...haha...if you dun finish this the tuition will not end and if there is any wrong we will photocopy everything and redo it all over again...
guess this method work...i was literally crazy after that, crying and laughing...while waiting for the lesson to start, being alone...i decided to reward myself..a nice cupcake and i cam whore with it...hmmm...boredom...
Mini studio
Studio ~
Cam whoring - angel above
Nomal eye angle
Low angle
dinnerless again~ well at least there was a bowl of nice soup left for me..thats all..i felt my gastric attacking me in the nite with terrible pain but eventually falling aslp...and growling stomach in the morning that force me to take breakfast or i will face a terrible pain till afternoon...
it wasnt the only problem that i face yesterday..i had a terrible quarrel..and tada...everything broke like my globe...saddening? i did not know how to feel sad at that point due to my tired body...i simply, ok..and tats all..the pain only struck me today morning..so wat?
what is broken is broken..like my globe...no matter how much i love it..i threw it away..it cannot be mended...just hope you will be happy...guess..busy people like me should not touched that sensitive line again...
so wats the point of writing all this went i know what is going on and still is not doing anything about it..just some venting out...
went out with my god bro on friday nite..nice outing..indeed...hehex...thanks gor.. i want ice cream!!! i haven been seeing my biological brothers, sorry~ guess i was in and out of the house till i simply miss them..i missed seeing them...
all i knew was...
i am not a good girl...
i realise i change too much...
and nothing is going to be rewind...
get along with life...
and there is nothing i want to change now,
even though i do not rly like who i am now,
but that is reality,
so what is it about guilt?
its just a word,
its just a feeling
that will disperse soon enough...
live with it...
I am sorry I changed, i am sorry but I do not want to change back...
welcome to the game~
8:41 AM sHaRiLyN LiM