did something silly early in the morning. very silly...=X

today was yet another school day. went running today with zain and friends. help out at the CCA booth, did not manange to "high".felttotally out of place.

i have been feeling so inhuman until today. i duno why for the past feel days i am faking happiness, sadness was damn numb, i couldnt even cry when i am feeling sad. so unlike me. but today, thanks to victor, not really la, just that he say it out. the rush of sadness, hatred sunk deep in, invoke my tears glands. At last on the bus i manage to cry, monday and today i went running there is a reason, cos i wanna forget, i want to vent out my un-happiness which i cant seem to show it out. damn it, i hate myself. and why did i do the silly thing in the morning? cos i want to show myself i am still a human, i am still sharilyn that is scare of pain. but i am not sharilyn, cos i did not felt any pain, did not drop any tears.

it has been made official: Lim Pei Yun Sharilyn is stepping down from her position as NYAA Coordinator. SHe will also be suspended from all SIngapore Polytechnic Environment Clubs events.

so what is the silly thing i did? if u realise i had wore a wrist band.get the picture already?

(edited) on 1/5/2008

5:31 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

did not blog yesterday..this is for yesterday bahx...had not much fun yesterday. meet xuan xuan had lunch date with her...den went to cca booth see see...and also must thank alcina for sending the whole stacks of notes for me at T11A cos i left them at the booth. Rachel also delivered baby orchid to my lab at T1A, her receipt wrote "sharilyn's lecturer" funny rite? after school, went to meet xuan xuan, den the both of us go the cca booth see see, den "play" pepsi cola 123, but did not play cos there was a phtographer who wanted to take a "natural" picture of us playing. around 5:30pm, me and xuan xuan go "act" year 1. I even got balloon. wahaha...i gave it to mono, den mono gave it to the neighbour kid when we go home. =D
here are the mass pics:

xuan and her lunch...


my lunch...


Me and priscilla(my new class de classmate)


My new class's rep, doesnt he look like someone in the journey to the west?=X


mono and his balloon...







after i reach home, was "caged" in my room again. mummy told me that angel called her. it is official. more things in the above post.

4:50 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

today..yet another monday has gone by. Was quite stoning on the bus:

But today was a great morning. I went running at school's stadium. Run + Jog + some walking. In total 8 rounds of the stadium which is 3.2 Km. Wahaha...Together with zhi hao, actullay ask sutomo, camilla and benny along too. But all too lazy. No la, sutomo was going gym during his 2hour break, after school he still need to work, so lets not stress his muscular body =P camilla had rehersal for her string esemble, cos she is performing. As for benny? he wanted stay in his dreamland longer. Haha...but i had a great time "venting" some feeling out though. haha... After the 8 rounds, and was about to take a rest xuan xuan came along. Wahaha...not to run of course, u will noe why when u see her below.haha...

The great view of the sports complex clouds..wahaha

now u noe?


Had normal lessons, but with more energy after the running. =D But i receive a call which i did not expect. It is from one of the tution centre which aske me whether i wanted to teach tuition. I was in class, so i had to reject it. wahaha... During tutorial of biochemical techniques,though i know i am suppose to study, but was unable to pay attention, but i did. So in between i drew "girls" wahaha...take a look at them...=P




After school, went to CCA booth. SAw alcina and victor. =D got a free bottle of coca cola zero, taste abit horrible. =P was there "highing" with victor and alcina..=P till rachel came. I call upon Dr Chia, cause happen to saw him, and "promoted" something to him and Mr. Tan. (Mr. Tan was interested to buy a house around my area, hmmm...not a bad idea though i can have free tuition, haha) wahaha...but Dr. Chia was bombing us with thousand and one questions, wahaha...he say if he get it he will deduce my grades (no...my OSRM is at stake) wahaha...he is just kidding. =D but they were indeed great people too..thanks to the both of them.

After tat me, and alcina, rachel went to the showcase walk walk, hmmm...it seems i look like year 1, cos the people are giving me the brochures, more like for me to recycle. Or they want me to 跳朝(is it written like tis) wahaha...den we 3 got skates club go see see..they tot i was year 1 too, and wanted to like "pull" me in....wahaha...but we intro ourselves, cos we wanted to collabrate with them for NYAA physical recreation section. Skating, anyone interested? wahaha...but, thanks to my 2 great sisters who obviously is not letting me "stepping down" (or falling out) from NYAA coordinator. Haha...the president named "alwyn" very unique name. haha...gave him my no. and got his. (i am framed) haha...on the way to MRT, rachel was asking whether want to watcht he wu jiawei concert, but we did not go, cos i object, not because i dun want to go (but i cannot go) need to rush home. =( this 2 jies very nice, walk me to the bus-top, accompany wait for the bus, at the same time we were crapping. Wahaha...not really la, but talk alot 3 girls = 1 巴刹 wahaha...no la. I enjoy their company...=) both are the greatest people i have met.

kkz...time to stop typing. Cos i am *~*hungry*~* wahaha...hmmm...should i write another post for poem (or a chunk of texts)?

7:15 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

did not do any revision forthe whole day. Today is housewife in training day =|

Morning - keep clothings, iron a few pieces of clothing
late morning- go marketing
early afternoon - clean up the marketings
late afternoon - iron clothings + prepare dinner
early evening - finish ironing, prepare dinner
just a few moments ago - serve dinner, take dinner, wash plates.

now? *stoning*

haha...today is housewife in training. haix...the most difficult part? is dinner!

my ingredients:
3 live crabs
1 basketful of cockles
1 duck
1 big lump of pork
few pieces of salted vegetables
of course the garlics etc...

my dishes:
~salted vegetable and duck soup 咸菜鸭汤
~Season-ed fried pork chop
~black sauce stir-fried cockles with chilli and garlic
~steam crabs

lol...one word to describe how i am feeling now.

~tired~

haha..stop asking me who wrote the poem (or 1 chunk of text) in my previous post..it is written by me..haha dun suspect...ya it is one of my 见得光 work..i also did not know i can write to tat standard..haha..*shy shy*

7:55 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

This post is dedicated to somebody special. Wahaha...You will know who you are. I dont even know whether will you read this. Maybe you will, maybe you wont. This is part of "crushing the crush" part of growing up. Well to the rest of the readers just enjoy.

To Someone I call Friend..

I feel like I have known you forever
Although I only met you sometime this past year
But our friendship will remain forever
No matter what crosses our paths and hearts

The best thing that happened to me
Is finding a forever friend like you
You're there to listen, help, and talk to
And best of all, I know I can confide in you

Some say the best love is one sprung from friendship
But I feel we shouldn't try
Because it might never work
and will cause me to lose a friend like you.

Friendship and love are always intertwined
Too close which sometimes causes confusion
If we try, we will never know what will happen
and we can never be friends like this again
at least for now I know you will remain my friend forever

I don't know if this is going to work
I'm not totally sure that we should not try
But I have all these mixed feelings
Bottled up inside

I don't deny having that special feeling for you
I do know how you feeling now though
we are just not ready for it
that is why I want to tell you "friends forever"
That also means I'm saying" Goodbye to I love you"

I cherish this piece of friendship.
more than any other.
As it indeed worth more.
rest assure i will hold it close to my heart,
like it is part of me.

"friends forever"

9:50 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

yesterday a lot ppl seem to blog...other then me...why ar? yesterday did not have a great evening till night. ya then i felt like scolding "damn it" haha...

yesterday had 5 and a 1/2 break! in total i only ha 2 hours lesson. Had 1hour of practical, cos we very pro (haha) we finish within 1 hour. Together with shao yong, dominic, jordan, camilla, jolene and chengfa, we went FC2 to eat mac as breakfast. After a while a bit sians, so took a lot of pics with camilla haha...













stay there till 11am, go and look at our baby fungus and bacteria which we grow on our agar agar that we make that day. Cute? haha...












after looking, we went to fc3 to collect my datasheets cos i printed it. After that they wanted to go play pool, which i am not interested in, so i headed to library on the way saw sean. At the library i was using my com for a while, when i saw xuan xuan she like never saw me so i call out her name, den she turn. Haha...she sat down with me, she was doing her cca record form, then we go look for angel, but angel not back yet, so we sit there watch casper with a few guys at SAA there. Took pics of tako and mono haha...here they are, you can find it on xuan's blog too..haha...after that went to class, copy copy more notes haha...

Mono hungry so eat xuan's biscuit =P


tako not happy sit on mono to take revenge...


Mono fight back by pulling tako's tako...haha


today? hmmmmm....another day go by, went to GEMS one of my most enjoyable lesson, though a bit boring. Kah Yan told me that her friend is in my class. But I duno who he is. Now know le, my GEMS ended at 2:10pm haha...so early, went to FC1 look for Kah Yan, saw her fren who is my classmate in GEMS, he is call Nicholas. Also found out that Kah Yan's Frend who is my GEMS classmate is Pei Xuan's classmate from the same course. Phew, SP too small le...haha...had my last class till 4pm, after tat wanted to go clubhs to buy orchid and cactus but no one there, give zain a call he got hoon's key so we go there, only to realise the wholeplace is in great mess till there is no space to sit. To SAA: its time to upgrade SP Environment CLub's CLUB HOUSE! haha....after tat saw hoon and ruru, they were going to do the CCA Showcase thingy. SO also go there see see, not much help though... *pei seh*

Honestly, ever since G-POP i feel a bit out of place in SP Env le, maybe is myself bahx...cos i no longer find anything that is attaching me there. Previously there was G-POP and many other events hold me to it. All the fun and laughter. Now? haix...

came back home in a sly with no one knowing i am home. Until my gor shouted for me then i was alrdy half conscious so replied him softly.

it is almost the end of G-POP. Now is to chiong studies le...Xuan xuan + kah yan together we chiong ar...haha...

7:19 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

loner-ship is what I am falling into. Changing class to 03 was not a totally bad idea though, as expected, i expect myself to fall into lonership soon. But did not expect it to be so soon. I remained silent in class, no longer that hyper active girl. Change le bahx, all i can say is i feel such a different person. haha...

say i am strong? i amnot, i am just acting strong, i dont want to protray any weakness. cos I believe in myself that I can do it. but can i really do it alone? haha...

haha..this post sound so emo...haha...

*smiles* =P

haha...lets take about the love topic =P

cos i just heard a love-ly love story about class couple which ended sadly. Haiz...beginning always start so sweet, but not all bahx...haha...falling in love are not necessary good thing or sweet thing, especially when you yourself is not even ready for a new relationship. haha..so i define that as "crush the crush" haha... crushes will not last long if it is not develop (i think) haha...den let it be, tat is why crush the crush..moreover at my stage of life, friends are all i am looking for =P friends i mean true friends, hehe...

*a post full of craps, crapping during 3 and 1/2 break* (just ignore)

12:18 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Finally G POP is over. Without me ending it though. You know wat? I kinda of feel so useless. Sorry Rachel, unable to fulfill your last command. Hope you like the cake.

My very 1st time to skip classes, I wanted to skip since yesterday, bcos I feel there are a lot of things to shift, and I do not have the heart to go class. Cos i will feel utterly heartless to go for class and leave all the shifting to rachel, tat hong, alcina, zain and joyce. Especially in the morning when there is only rachel, tat hong and joyce. It is impossible to shift all of it. There was a point where me and rachel almost wanted to breakdown. But still hang on for the show to go on.

I reported at 8plus and from that sigh i assured myself tat my choice of skipping class is not wrong. My classmate would have been shocked, cos this is my 1st time skipping class, and i never even told them about it. haha...

everything was ok, other than many hiccups here and there, like ice for the tofu competition, had to go get styofoam box and cannot find ice. The bang Deli auntie was great to give us one large cube of ice,which I crush it, and got one cut across my vein:


haha...who cares. The most tiring part is to carry a walkie talkie, running from clubhs to plaza, here and there solving minor problems here and there. Indeed it was tiring, but all I can say is i enjoyed. Shang ming came down too which I was quite surprise about. All was spoiled by 2 sms-es and 1 miss call and 1 phone call. I was "re-call" back to go home to attend something, which I find it utterly ridiculous. I need to rush back back by 2:15pm, then it was already 1:30pm, ran to fc3 to print a copy of the posters for the teacher as the have requested for it, thus I feel maybe we should give them a copy for souvenir. From there i ran down, pass it to joyce to roll and tie. Change my clothes, and off I went without even saying proper goodbye to many people.

Went back home, reported to attend to that problem which is already solve. Stuck at home, unable to leave the house once I am in it. Indeed my house is like a cage for me. During my bath tears flowed together with the water, I realise as I am in there bathing the rest of the people are still doing work. Then I felt so useless being locked up. Whats more for my final task. In there I also realise my gastric was getting up and the pain was almost unbearable. Came out soon after, but realise there is no food cook. So ate a food which was HIGHLY discourage INSTANT NOODLES. My earliest lunch for the past week the time is 4pm. haha...

Tat hong called me asking about the cake shop which I have place an order for Rachel's birthday cake. The BURGER CAKE. How is it? Nice? too bad I dont's get to try it. =( But hope your enjoyed it.

As I am typing this, all of them there are packing up. Jia you, this is almost the end of G-POP. Haha, can I say tis? Even though I might get "knock" I realise this event really protray out how united this club. How united to you think we are as a club, as a committee, as friends? Rate it 1 - 10. 1 for poor, 10 for excellent.

I would rate it 6/10. =| I remember one sentence that was said "I do not have the full support of my committee"

Yesterday's injuries
The Unidentified obtained cut:


The unidentifed obtained blue black:


Here I got one last thing to say, haha...and it is for rachel, haha...


and a cake for u:

5:17 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

G-POP finally here!

Morning went down early in the morning wait for rachel, met until tat hong, do some things, den run go class. At class pay attention den 9am left there, go club house carry stuff for rach up and down, up and down, wahaha...right Hand got cut, also duno cut by wat, left hand got blue black also duno come from where de.

At there, was running from SAA to clubhouse den to plaza, has been running to this 3 places. At 11:30am went to my biochem prac, my lecturer was so shock to see me. Cos the class told him say I got event, but I still going for his practical ar, he say he is so touch and full of tears, i say i am full of perspire. *lame* did my prac and finish it by 1pm wahaha.. chiong go plaza again, den realise my left knee is hurting alot, alot, stress it too much le now having relapse, gastric was also acting up So..to forget all the pain wahaha...start to be high with victor, tat hong, pei xuan and joycee....wahaha...Den really cannot take it le, so eat bread bought from supreme master. wahaha...but tat was only breakfast...haha... saw some very cool performances by the kids, but the environment was so cold, only me and victor acting "crazy" haha...

left for class again, this time leg really crash le...wahaha...no la, still can walk. go there, start practical, make agar agar for fungus and bacteria. not bad quite ok other than some screwing up. but tat one 4get it bahz... but from there i feel so shag. after class went to plaza, intend to help out, but feel totally so shag so just lie down on the stage. dun even feel like coming up. kind of "emo" state le..cannot even bring myself to high. Even leaving, i left quietly. wahaha...duno why also...maybe too tired le bahz...more like hungry...haha..no energy to bring things high...hopefully tml will be a better bahz...not so cold like today.

Now I am going to post pictures of "cute" fungus and my baby agar agar for my baby bacteria and fungus. wahaha...










This is the agar I make, red red de...wahaha...I never take pic of the nutrient broth though...wahaha....


Hmm, got 1 comment on the agar, they smell like chicken essence, maybe that is what they add in our chicken essence. Mr Goh say this agar are very rich in nutrients..wahaha...

7:17 PM sHaRiLyN LiM