recently i have been on drug...haha...i mean medicine..

this medicine, have make me perspire like nobody's business...making me super thirsty...people who know me well, knows that i detest water..but for the past few days, i have been drink 1 cup of water every 1hour or so...cos i am feeling super thirsty...

duno is my body heaty or wat, my face just pop one pimple and a big one..i just realise it..arrrrrhhhh...haha...i become very restless and pump up..cant seem to settle down, and i am hungry always..these few days ahve been eating out of my normal range...duno why..today especially...i also duno what is wrong...

hope i can be back to normal soon...

7:35 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

this was suppose to be for yesterday...so here i say:

happy birthday Marcus..

may all ur wishes come true...

yesterday teacher gave me and pris off day...suppose to be so happy~ but still need to go back there..cos celebrating marcus and jiaxin's birthday, plus hoon's...cos hoon is in sch ITP..so go school celebrate..

The unwanted cake:


marcus and the cake:


make a wish:


he wanna kill hoon:


early morning..almost late for my FT practice..so rush all the way there..den after that..rush to the cake shop..took the cake and rush all the way to school..den hoon very funny...singing CNY song..cos it is chu yi..so play along with her...den jiaxin come so light a candle for her also...den after that..the cake get pushed here and there, no one want it..So i so sian diao...

everyone walk away left jiaxin sitting there..in the end everyone went back..still arguing over the cake..den suan le..dun want eat den throw away la...duno wat to say..in the end the cake duno why cut until like shit..den the whole thing look like shit..

Make me realise...birthday cake are for kids...only kids will want a birthday cake, make a wish and blow the candle and happily eat it..the cake yesterday make me realise people who grown up, dun really like cakes le..my whole memories of wanting a birthday cake simply shattered..and i dun want birthday cake this year..let it be like last year no cake..

someone once say me, say birthday is mean to celebrate with family or friends, that is why i did something..i wish i was that free, but teacher only tell me it is off day the day before...i dun have special powers to see ahead..and since u wanna celebrate alone which contradict what you say months before den what else can i do? it is your birthday, i dun want force people on their birthday...if i make it an unhappy one, den i am sorry...if only u know the amount of effort put into it every piece of it takes time and effort and stumbling a lot of problems..oh well, i am just not good at celebrating people's birthday ok? fine~ i wont organise anyone's birthday anymore...everything seem so meaningless now...

so after the pushing and stuffing of cake, i brought jiaxin to CLS building, cos she want to see see inside..den report to teacher...so ask teacher something den go off le..go where? duno~ lost..so i sit at the bustop for 30mins..den take bus go queenstown, go walk walk..den duno wat to do..so walk go anchor point walk walk..den go IKEA walk walk..den go tiong baru, at 3pm to eat lunch...after that go home...

these few days have been in cold 16degree, den go to hot sun 31degree..in and out..make my sinus so jia lat..keep flowing like tap, if not freeze in my nose..sians...so no choice..yesterday eat medicine and sleep...

Before that watch tv and fold incense paper..get nagged, say i fold too slow..in the end you only for 3 packs, i fold 8 packs..gor also never even fold for you~

later still need to do report..=S and if can, if she allow, go out with taby..also duno go where.haiz...

8:56 AM sHaRiLyN LiM

today is a day...
today is yesterday's tomorrow,
today is tomorrow's yesterday.

~crap~

lets see..wat have i done today? i went for advance theory practice...i failed the 1st 2 booklets, ~duh~ what do you expect when you don't really study at all..well..it wasnt tat bad...i did pass in the end...

den grandma call me, told me that today she wanna go sing karaoke, so we postpone the house cleaning..on sunday, we the kids were require to report to my dad..our mission? stone..er..er..we also duno wat to do next..so chit chatted with our auntie..she reminded us, she is 47 years old tis year...can't see her age...and we still have a great grandfathter 97 years old..and my grandma is 66 years old..she is 48 years old older den me..she became a grandma at the age of 42!!!tat is like my mother's age? er..er..er..i dun think my mum will be grandma at this year though...=X...

my mum, 42 years old, 21 years old married to my unromantic dad, 22years old gave birth to a pair of twins...and at 24 had an accident kid which is me...32 years old had a miscarriage...my twins brothers, currently graduated from ngee ann poly, waiting for NS enlistment...hopefully not tat soon~ cos when they start NS, their job will become mine...not i dun want do yet..but...i must get license 1st...their job is to deliver body kits, drive my mum around, take on the wheel when my dad drinks..i guess i will have a new job, drive my bros to army camp..haha...lastly me, age 18 years old, still studying in Singapore polytechnic...still chionging..still struggling...still trying her best...but is like dying and giving up...

you ask me? what have i done for my past 18years? i dun really rmb much about primary...but i rmb helping down syndrome kids in school..me and my friend...holidays were practically everyday at home...secondary, was much fun filling..being the naughty librarian...went up to be student counselor elect, leader for library club, did a fund raising for SPCA, tao the school counselor, camp a the D&T workshop, walk around the fountain, participate in sports day, run cross country, that was almost all in my secondary school life...

poly? had a fun filling year 1...i wish i can go back to tat year...year 1 was my best years..thanks to all the seniors that contributed to the beautiful memories...year 2..was chionging...chionging...chionging...and now..year 3? i miss the club...i can understand how victor feels when he say he felt he never done enough in his 3 years of poly...i want a fun filled year 3!!!filled with FYP, filled with gatherings, volunteer work, attend additional courses, my greatest wish, go back SP Env, *shake head* kind of not possible le..so many things to do..

but but..the 1st ever thing to do is rest a lot!!! cos...tmr will be hell~

i crapped a lot...

kk..today i went to pass hoon her bday pressie..hope u like it..den we met until dr E and adeline kho..so we chit chat..hope u like my teachers but cannot give u...den adeline kho gave us a very good deal..haha..thanks..thanks..den we go hoon lab camp...had a girls talk..haha..so violent one somemore..haha...den play the injection moulding machine..i never seen a real one...only on D&T textbook got see before..the machine so cute...hoon must hug and kiss it den will work..haha...jkjk...like tat lo..den go home...den until now lo...haha..boring rite?

=P

7:53 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

For today's post i will not be posting on my life..cos it is boring..more for the environment. Tonight at 10pm, on Ockto there is a movie cal FLOW, love for water. I thought this will be an interesting show just like the inconvenience Truth. Instead of me blabbering about it, i found its trailer on youtube:



Also found their website at: http://www.flowthefilm.com/

The question they ask is, can anyone really own water? Are we really going to buy and sell water like oil? In singapore, it is already happening..I am curious to catch this show on tv..do catch it if you are free.

Next upcoming, i believe many has seen the advertisement of Earth hour, it is the first time we are actually participating. Here is the poster:



Here is the video:


As you can see on the poster, it commence on this coming saturday, 28 March 2009, 8:30pm...Do you part in switching your lights off, just for that hour..if each household does that, it will make a great impact. As the saying: Every light counts, every effort counts. Contribute your small small part to a big cause.


Lastly, it is Earth day coming up, on April 22 2009..here is the poster for it.



Though i hope everyone will play their part on Earth Day...But i hope it does not only happen on earth day...I wish, everyone can make Earth day on everyday..

11:09 AM sHaRiLyN LiM

today no need to go back do project...but cos wanna go back play basketball have fun ike yesterday...but ended up waiting, waiting and waiting...until lunchtime...and the weather grey grey...like going to rain..so ended up..packing things..and going back home..but realise i got no lunch at home..so go buy instant noodles and go home eat...

ended up today...stay home the whole day never do anything...tmr outing...also cancel..cos a few more ppl cannot make it...den suan le..no mood to carry on also..might as well stay at home...call up the cake shop and postpone the cake..i also duno when to postpone the date to..haiz...

no mood...just feel like sleeping...and sleep more and forget everything..

6:47 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

today as usual..go to school..meet pris and finish up wat we were suppose to do and go off le..

meet up with marcus and jiaxin at clubhouse...den go to basketball court and play~ long time never do sports le..so a bit rusty...but cos old le...and also old injuries..ended up cannot do for very long..no choice...but after a sports game let me vent all the thingy in sports...nice feel..can we play again tmr?

den go lesson...interesting..not sleepy at all..the teacher all quite nice..but testing our knowledge..so those questions kept our mind awake..and also there was an airbag bag stimulator..no one dare to try..so the volunteer was some thing that people with 3rd eye can see...i think it will scare it off..the sound was so loud...

that is all for today...i wonder what tmr brings...can we play basketball again tmr?or should i go for a run?

7:29 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

hmmm...i tot this was nice...took it from Nicholas blog...you can go try it out too:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

this is what i did:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

7:54 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

have you seen ur results yet? That is if u are SP students...

how is it? good or bad?

if it is good i congrates you here...if bad i would say ganbatte next sem~

then i look back at myself...i am feeling all down...all sadded up..i would say i did way way better then last sem and all my other sems...yet...i am struck with sadness..cos i know...wat ahead of me now till evening is scolding...

i have been scolded for the pass few days or week to be exact..this causes me to avoid my parents..i locked myself in my room and bury myself in anime...wat else can i do to run? i sleep...

then, later in the evening i know i would be call upon and listen to another round of lecture without anymore words to be spitted out of my mouth...

results, results, other den alphabets what does it truly mean? it is able to spur someone to do better, but also able to destroy passion.I truly duno wat i am feeling...i know i did a lot better and suppose to be happy for myself...but yet~ i find myself sinking into more sadness upon the thinking of mass scolding...

other then crying into my pillow to vent all this out..i really duno what else i can do..i feel the surge to get myself out of this course and discontinuing it...but is it all worthy? i seriously duno...

i feel moodless, cos i duno what i am suppose to feel...hardwork does pay off, but one still need to be smart for it to pay off better.

2:37 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

wonder why i nv post about my life for the past few days? cos..lazy~ i wonder who spread the lazy disease to me~

lets go all the way back to tuesday.

i lock myself in my room for the whole day and nite...watching anime...i am now watching prince of tennis, a rather outdated anime...but still nice...

wednesday

go back to school..but realize my supervisor put me aeroplane...so ended up going there for nothing...

so after that, i went back to secondary school..there are a lot of changes...there are a lot of extensions, alot of partitions, 2 huge fan in the hall, fencing outside the hall..a lot of teachers left, remaining those few...the place where held my fondest memories was the D&T workshop...

the place where i like the most...not forgetting my always helpful mr. nizam technician...he bring me to tour the place, the biggest change is the design studio...it use to be plain old place, with wall painted in white, and benches around, it can fit 2 classes or more...i remember whenever i end sch, will always head there dump my bag and go take my workpiece and doing mass changes to it...

not forgetting getting all dirtied up...the studio is also the place where i did all the soldering, and being stuck in there doing up the products for competitions, the glider competition and the steam power boat race...

now the studio is lock at all time, students are not allowed to be in there...the workshop? not much changes, other than the equipments have change position...i was there helping the sec ones do up their art piece, till 430pm...of course, i collect my design folio..

this is the new studio:

this use to be a classroom, but they build a wall, now it is a pathway, those jigsaw thingy is hand drawn:


Zoom Up:


Studio 2:


i have also had a god father there..he is the OM of the school..neverchanging..still as naggy as he is... =P the school...feel so different...the library too...the library club? i remember being the naughty little sec one, who just cannot sit down...when MS heng turns her head, i am off to the bookshelves hiding away...and now, it seem to have a girl similar to me call Limin...but i am more guai...haha...the club use to have 60 students...now it has only 8~12students...mass decreased...

as for the fountain it is still as dirty as it is...remember back then having my thumb print on it..that was when i was sec 1...here it is..my class work:

can you guess which is my thumb print?


so why am i reminiscing, cos i realize i am soon going to be poly year 3...i can understand how a few seniors felt...like i have not achieve anything in my poly school days..and now with 1 year...i just wanna do something with it..yet i know i can't...what is going to be ahead? i duno..its time to plan ahead? will i be in the working world at the age of 19? or pursue more studies..stuck is the only thing i can say...

thursday...
go to school..play with sludge..yux!!! haha..but fun fun...the weird thing is as we stir thee seem to be more liquid coming out...it kind of stink too..but it was fun stirring...

after lunch..we seem to noe wat is going on in our project...

so today friday...we have an objective and completed the objective!!!

looking forward to see the results of my lab work...still..life is monotonous and everyting in this family is shattering pieces by pieces...

6:50 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

oh no~ haha...i forgot to post this...kind of late~ but but...hope you like the cake surprise...have u bite it yet?



to mei hoon aka squirrel

oh ya~ dun think the cake is my present...u still got 1 present...must remember to claim hor~

11:59 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

this is my 301 post le~ so fast...this blog is also more den 1 year old le...

Saturday

duno wat i doing also..actually hoon jio me, as ken jio her..den i think, think think, den wanna ask mummy that time, she bring me go out...so where we go? we go orchard, 1st time in orchard with mummy and gors...go there walk walk...eat at the food republic, not very nice also..expensive some more...

den go walk, walk...like nothing ler..den walk go wheelock place..there also walk circle, never go inside any shop...den go down the marks and spencer, also only walk walk...den go borders also walk walk..after yakuza moon no books capture me le..

den go to taka also walk walk...the whole day is walk walk..and eat eat...nothing to buy there also...

like tat lo...

some pics:

peach soda~


can guess wat is this?


yesterday? read yakuza moon again..no sian of it...2nd time reading...den kenna scolding...den go back room lock door and continue to read...den finish den sleep...

dinner sux..the rest of the night sux...luckily got hoon and ken, pei me until i sleep..


today? lost lost..go lesson in the morning...den school..den duno wat we did also? den i took mrt, duno where to go...i drop at lavender...den take back to bugis...den duno wat to do just stay in the bookstore read books..no book caught my attention...den walk walk...den want to go eat but cannot find a place to sit...find until at yoshinoya eat a bit..den dun feel like eating...den go cold storage walk walk...den take mrt...take until commonwealth den marcus and jiaxin call..meet at cityhall...so took train back to city hall..den walk marina square..den walk to esplanade..that is wat happen to 3 un street wise people...we just anyhow walk..and find until the library...my 1st time there though...sit there, stone stone, talk talk..den walk go back to mrt..den go home..

nothing interesting at all..all bored up..tommorrow teacher give us off day...but...dunno wat to do with it also..

haiz~

7:34 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

today had a bad hair cut...shall be covering it with my cap...

haiz...

today is a disappointing day...disappointed towards the hair dresser..and someone...haiz...

nites..

8:13 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

i still bur blur about my FYP~

it doesnt seem to be on track...what am i doing? i also duno..blur blur de...

i only know, we self dismissal...after lunch den self dismiss...cos teacher also busy with a lot of marking..call us grow bacteria only...

i feel like a lost bird...i only know, i like to sleep...i sleep in the lab yesterday...play solitaire and stone~

today go walk walk with pris, at lot 1, go bite some food..den go grandma house, after a while i am sleeping again...i feel like a sleeping bag..

seeing my previous post...i was suppose to post something...yupz...but need to give me some time to on my brain computer...it lags at time..

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arh~ i say i wanted to post something on environment...

hmm...this is compare and contrast, which is better:

1) get a plastic bag and use it for your rubbish later, vs use a reusable bag, and buy plastic bags just for ur rubbish

2) be a vegetarian and use animals as specimens vs eat meat but work for animal protection

3) use solar power and use a lot of electricity vs use normal electricity but reduce usage

4) use hybrid car and travel all over the place vs use normal car with biofuel usage

ok..that is for now, i tired le...wanna go sleep...signing off with my shoe with clothes on:

6:59 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

stone...today is the last day of slacking...

did i even slack? maybe i did...

monday i was late for driving class!!! sorry~ i fail my practice by 1%, lost my ezlink...miss the bus have to wait another one...how suay can it get...but..i got my ezlink back le.. =D the BBDC call me to tell me...

after driving, go to workshop...hmmm...wat am i doing there? help mummy packed 2007's accounts...pack, pack, pack...den realize the office very dirty and messy...so take pail and cloth, wipe, wipe, wipe...den the floor very dirty, so vacuum, vacuum, den still think the place very dirty so vacuum the chair and wipe all the legs of dust...following go down help bro pack the body kits...pack pack pack...den tired le...go sheng song buy groceries, carry carry carry...go home!!! eat, rest a bit..drink milk...plomped! i drop on my bed and zZzZzZ...

i realize i old le...my knee failing me le...must drink milk...

do you know, osteoporosis start at the age of 20plus, but you only see the effect when you are 50plus, by that time den drink milk a bit too late...so start drinking milk now...

tuesday, wake up early drink coffee and milk...read magazine, den carry tiny and girl girl go grooming...raining..so i need to carry 1 by 1 down the car...den go workshop...i realize i finish all the job on monday..so there is nothing left for me to do...so i walk here and there...and i found something to do!!! wash toilet...roll up my jeans, wear slippers, and start washing the toilet, now the toilet clean clean...but the workers got a earful from ah hua uncle... "you guys ar, buay ta han...cannot keep the toilet clean ar? need boss's daughter to come and clean toilet for your.." but, i was really bored~

for the rest of the days, i just linger around like little ghost...help my bro a bit here and there...sit down...tada...go fetch girl girl and tiny le~ home sweet home..here i am, still slacking..

tommorrow, got driving in the morning...den, going to school to meet my FYP supervisor at 915am,if can stay there do things...if not, maybe see go where again...

actually i got something to blog...but no mood to blog...see i next post will blog ner not~

6:43 PM sHaRiLyN LiM