going around part Singapore!

today everything goes in a cycle. Hmm, only the morning ba, haha.. Flip the nespaper, look for jobs haha. Den went down to WATERLOO street (which i got lost) for an interview which is direct admission (but quit it)-.-'|' cos my mummy's friend (auntie rebacca) has a job for me to do. Ask me whether I remember my POA ner not. Den agree to help her out. So that job can quit le, den I receive another call from RECRUIT EXPRESS telling me my job at NUS at INSTITUTE OF SYSTEM SCIENCE is already approve ask me go down sign document. So, call auntie rebacca tell her that I can only work for her for 1 week =(

So i was at bugis, i also went into the temple to pray. And *shake shake* that thing for my lot, i got lot 74 which is a bad lot that is what it says, sort of feel sad. then leave the place le...after tat took a train down to dbouy ghaut go plaza sing went into action city saw moringo's BIGGER brother, and her families =P :


















had my lunch -.-'|' more like mono having lunch so these are the bo liao pics of mono eating:


Getting ready, where is the food?

















itadakimasu!!!!












Finishing off my last fries...oishi!!!

















I have finish! *burp* Gochiso sama desu!


















Drinking my ice lemon tea...























still drink my ice lemon tea....























From there go to potong pasir, meet Shang Ming, from there we go bedok cause he want to do something there. HEard fom him, he receive a call from air force le, going in on 3rd of March, *sad* =( after bedok we go back, he went home i go jurog east to settle some document things. Go into popular saw this very cute handbag!




















Decided to take bus home. Reach clementi saw my juniors haha...say hi hi den disappear =P i realise i kind of miss sch, miss my god-father, mr nizam, ms wong, mrs tan--> fav quote (one more word from you and i am going to slap u onto the wall like lizard!) haha, will never forget tat, and always tease geric (look at geric he is a covalent bond --> round- round [head round, body and also round] ) haha, she is the chem teacher who teach me chemistry. When i am thinking of going back, i realise alot of teachers has left already. haiz....

back to my journey, i took the 189 from clementi back home, on my way home a bit bo liao, took the sunset, haha...
























that is all for today, now going back to anime watch, =P

7:44 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

camping in my room!

today? nv go anywhere other den the market with my mum in the morning. this are the things:










Came back home ans stuck anime: my HIME, not bad kinda like the ending =P haha typically i look at shuai anime boys, reito is shuai haha...tate ok la...girls? shizuru is pretty but is a lesbian. =( i find mikoto cute, though she can be a little bit irritating at times. Overall one nice anime, thks sean, after this blog going to watch loki, as sean suggested. So overall today i have stay in my room nv step out of it for more then 5 hrs. kkz tat is all i got to blog today.

erm, it is a bit short i noe.

10:40 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

day out!

today another day of flipping newspapers look for jobs, sms-ing, chatting on msn and calling.On top of that I was e-mailing all the organisations for G- POP! In addition i receive a letter from a friend. The letter content? Some updates of his life and many drawings which some i cannot figure out =P But still congratulating him, because he is going to POP! soon and be a coporal.

After that i felt bored, happen to be talking to ZAIN online, so jio him go out =P we went bugis.-.-'|' had jolibean, thks for his soya bean milk. =D So we walk walk see see. Then go archade play! Haha very long never play archade le. We played the spot the different. Silent hill which i got killed =P, basketball (his hand pain still play together with me) den the hit hit game duno wat i call that, then i watch him play time crisis 4. From there i need to go home le. So i went back home. I was less then 2hours when we did all thes things =D but the best part is, i ahd a lot of fun. Very long never had so much fun le =)thanks!

On my bus trip home, I saw cockroaches on the bus, running here and there. OMG...thery are as in the pics, look a bit disgusting cos there were baby cockroaches too...=P



















Hmmmm....speechless...hope i will have a good night ahead too!

6:39 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

I suddenly feel the baby's hairstyle look like reuben The 1st from the right(he is my classmate) Similar?

11:30 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

My grandma's live..

Today i need to say sorry to rachel...as i was unable to attend the NEA meeting with her. =( it was just too early, and i am unable to leave home. I hope everything is running smoothly..

Today was not a slacking day for me too. I was called to go down to my grandma house. So i went over, she was washing clothes so i help her wash. Help her hang the clothes. Den i had a chit chat session with her about when she was young what she did. Indeed is very different from our current live now. From her, alot things were counted in cents. 5cents can buy 1 ice ball, take bus, a plate of noodle. 30cents can watch a movie. Just like now, movies are usually more expensive den food. But it doesnt happen all the time.

From there i accompanied her to market, help her carry all the things for her. Had luch with her. I dont usually get the chance to sit down and take meals with her. Cos i am usually not allowed to go over. =( After that we went back home and make sambal blachan together =) her part time maid came, and ask her "she is your daughter ar?" i just gave the smile and continued cutting my chilli. My grandmother say "no la, she is my youngest grand-daughter" she was like "waaa, so big already ar, you good life le" She gave me an ang bao, but yesterday was the last day of CNY, so I return it back to her. Telling her that "CNY is over, i pai seh take you ang bao" as she clean the house. I was enjoying cooking with my grandmother. We chat about who is the naughtiest amoung my uncle and aunties + my mum. Haha. After cooking we sat down. Chit chat. I also help her water plants, these are 2 of the beautiful plants:

Look like fishes...the one at the background is my grandma













orchids...


























From there she told me that she will be going over to the senior citizen corner at clementi jsut 2 bus stop away from SP. So i told her that i go over to sch, ltr at 5plus go back find her. Then i headed to school. Wondering i go back do what? Not meet MS ANGEL, she is sick and told me that she will be going home earlier (she call me in the morning to ask about something) so what was i doing in sch? hmmm.... SEAN, ZAIN and BENNY knows. I was there to clean clubhs! =P

The club house is in quite a big mess. With tissue papers on the floor (duno whose, so many bacteria) Biscuit wrappers on the table,(who si the culprit he/she knows him/herself)) ribbon fishes. plastic/paper bag filled of yakult bottles. Just cannot stand seeing the club in a big mess. So i start packing here and there, den BENNY pop in say "hi" chat with him for a while den he went back to his club hs. just after i wept the floor ZAIN pop in, sit down ther watch me clean the clubhs. Den clean the board (sorry, i erase all the writings there).

After that we walk to MRT, he took MRT home while i go to clementi 410 to look for my grandmother. All this while my handphone is dead flat. =( so i was MIA in my family. My mum was looking for me, my "auntie" was looking for me but all could not. Sorry i didnt mean to MIA.

After reaching the senior citizen, i help them wrapped chopsticks in a bunch of 10, and fork, spoon and tissue. They were going eco friendly. They are having a party this coming Sunday but, each person is only entitle to 1 chopstick, one spoon, one fork and 1 tissue paper. Cute? Den we lou yu shen. I could not provide pics, handphone not batt, if not sure alot of photos.=(

LAstly, they went off for dinner and i went home.

(this 2 days my family seem to be feeding me alot, =P ytd i had kway chap for dinner,cos auntie say no dinner, so i packed back..but mummy came home with 2 pack of "hor fan" i never wat i am full le. Suppose to eat it for today's dinner but my grandma gave me 2 packet of nasi lemak for my dinner, collapse...all want to fatten me up. But i only ate one packet of nasi lemak for dinner, cos my brother fed me with a packet of delicious biscuit..=P)

Sorry SEAN i haven learn lucky star song, very difficult, even more difficult den the philipines love song. =( CAn drag a few more days?

I will end of with a code.

I think the girl in me is FIL again. haiz...how true? Duno...

Wat is FIL?
U can guess and tag it in my tag board, guess correctly got prize. 1 BEN & JERRY Ice cream during G -POP! =P

10:34 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

G -POP!

The LOGO:
























I am here to advertise G-POP!

G-POP will be held in Singapore Polytechnic on 22nd of April 2008 - 23rd April 2008. It will be filled with games and fun-filled activities.


Why do we have G-pop?

To celebrate Earth Day (22nd April 2008)
To increase awareness on the rising issues and difficulties faced in the green community and how to tackle them
Network with tertiary, secondary and primary institutions to educate them on ways to lead an environmentally sustainable lifestyle.

WHEN? 22, 23 April 2008 (Tues & Wed)
WHERE? SP PLAZA (outside SP Convention Centre)
TIME? 12:00 – 5:00 for both days

So what is going on?
There is a creative tofu making compeition, stare at the participants as they whipe up dishes of tofu. Which might make you saliva drool.

There is also an envriO shoe design compeition and many many more! So many of it till I can't state all down. But ice cream lovers (like me) there will be BENs & JERRY! Isn't that temptation enough?

Ever ask your parents what are their childhood toys? Come down and take a look at them, or even try making it with your pair of hands. It is not as difficult as studying.

Wanna get some thing home?
Buy a baby catus or orchid home,just make sure you feed them with water daily. OR they might be a n ideal present for you frend!

So why are you considering? Make youself free on the two dates and come down to G- POP where "~Greening the Planet, is Our Passion~"

11:53 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

WEAVING WORKSHOP!!!

Today we had weaving workshop with the pre poly year 1 students. Befor that MEI HOON, PEI XUAN, SEAN and ME were crazy. We took crazy pics and secret photographing of one another haha...they are:

Another pic of PEI XUAN taking photo of me:


















That is sean hiding behind the board,

















This was taken secretly =P

























I like this picture, though PEI XUAN was poking mono't butt, but her smile is vry sweet =)























That is hoon taking pic of me taking pic og mono =P



They students came in that time they were sort of angry, me and pei xuan was like "blurred" we duno how to react...so we split into 2 groups. My grop had 6 people. I tried to mingle with them, showly they start to become as high as they can be. From there they influence MEI HOON's group. So the spirit start to lighten. So there they are.

Leave fighting ???



Look alike?



I made heart shape using the leaves, but i never took pics of it, PEI XUAN and MEI HOON both want, but i only got 1 heart, they were saying they wantt he 1st heart. Haha, it is not meant for ur =P but after the weaving, i ended up teaching RACHEL, PEI XUAN and MEI HOON how to fold the heart.

There was also one talented girl who had weaved the 1st time and it is very good. Can say she weaved beautifully, i show PEI XUAN and MEI HOON they agree too. But she shy dun want to take photo. =P

So that is all for the weaving.=)

11:23 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

TEDDY!

This post is just post of teddy! He is now 3 months old. He has a dog house too...and all the cute cute pics of him..=P

11:14 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

YEsterday..=P

Thiswas suppose to be yesterday post, so i change the date above too...yesterday internet had some prob which cause me unable to put up wat i wanted.

Yesterday i went bugis for a job interview, hmmm...before that i go walk walk, went to action city saw a lot of family member of MORINGO (shang ming's apple) So there they are:






















From tat hong he was there at bugis too, sean too, ke xin too and pei xuan all were at bugis, is just that we never bumped into each other and the timing was also not right haha...

so yesterday was not much of a thing.

11:20 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

This is my 31st post on this world of blog. So I must make it special. Ha-ha not that special la. Just want to blog on minus plastic.

Even since plastic was invented/ discovered it has slowly grown to be part and parcel in many people’s lives. Walk down any street one can see plastic almost everywhere. Be it in the bus, where the handles, the casing, the chairs, and even the button to press for the bus to stop are also made of plastic. Walk down the street, the dustbin, the lamp-post cover there are so many of it make of plastic. Enter any shops; the packagings are usually made of plastic. Enter a micro-lab the pipette, the tubing for centrifugation; the Petri dishes are all make of plastic. Look in your room, CD casing, table lamp, containers, even your pens, and correction fluid is made of plastic. It seems plastic is already engraved in living.

Though it is engraved in part and parcel of living, we must do a part in reducing usage. Not saying to eliminate plastic totally out of one’s live it is almost impossible, but to reduce the amount use. Can you imagine the plastic spoon you throw today, is being buried and 100 years later when all of us are fossils the plastic spoon is still exist! There are quite a number of simple thing like you and me can do. We need not be professional environmentalist to save the earth. If it is not necessary then decline the usage to the plastic bag, but if you really need it then use it but remember to keep it and reuse it. =) I did not come out with this; it was someone who had influence me on this part of reducing usage of plastic bag. From there I learn and grow. If then I was just an ordinary girl and believes that I can do my part for the Earth why not you. There is nothing special about me. I am just like any other school going girl, so if me and SP Environment Club members can do it why not you?

Just do a little here and a little there it will become a big effort. If your little effort can influence others to put in their little effort then we will have bigger effort. Just like how POSB bank is promoting saving account “save a little here, and a little there, and it will grow” so if we dun use 1 plastic bag a day, in one year you would save 365 numbers of plastic bags. This is not only about plastic bags, but also a lot of items use in our daily lives, like spoons, forks etc.

So start saving plastics now your little effort can bring us far. Want to do more? SP Environment Club welcomes you! =)

8:08 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

The 30th Post!

This is my 30th post on this world of blog. Well this post will also talk more on what I did today.

I woke up at 9am, did bathing and cleaning up, and was looking at newspaper at 9:30am. From there I saw a job, called up and by 10am I was out of the house heading to South Bridge Road for an interview. Today morning was relatively fast pace. I wasn’t sure where it was. So I had to search my way through. I found my way, well maybe I am not as street idiot as I think I was ba. =P

Did the interview, it was a guy call Alfred, initially I thought he was testing how confident I was, but in fact he was testing how outspoken I was. Which I pass the interview, and landed myself in a job. I am highly influence from TAT HONG going around looking for part time jobs.

After my interview it was like 12pm. I wanted to head down to Waterways Watch Society =P gave SHANG MING a call. Since I was at Clark Quay I took the train down to Potong Pasir and waited for him. From there we took a bus down to Waterways watch society =P I am like exploring Singapore, haha… We reach waterways watch society and we saw EUGENE and ANNIE learning how to in- line skates. (So take note NYAA participant, it is not as easy as we think haha) They were rather cute, but I must say I truly admire their determination and willingly to learn, we should learn from them. Uncle EUGENE who fell down a lot of time until his butt open flowers le, but still stand on his on skates and do not want others to lend him a hand (he is already 50 yrs old) Auntie ANNIE who already got the skill of skating and had problem braking, but seeing her skate and trying to brake had show me the willingness to learn.

After that, they stop and took lunch, it was NASI LEMAK. Together we ate lunch and waited for the STUDENTS from a SECONDARY SCHOOL. Meantime I was folding clothes, and SHANG MING teased me by saying I don’t know how to fold clothes. But I prove him wrong =P. Then I help to write some stuff on the white board. While ANNIE was doing the presentation =) after she finished I help to distribute the clip boards to the group leaders. Together with SHANG MING we brought them to the beach and let them collect the rubbish.

As it was low tide it stinks, no choice. We saw a DEAD turtle, a DEAD fish. A girl pick up 1 condom, another boy picked up another condom, and I pick 2 condoms. So you can imagine what people do there at night. They maybe try to add to the birth rate in Singapore. The kids are rather naughty and difficult to handle. In the group I had a girl crying so had to comfort her.

Why she cried? I promise SHANG MING I will tell him which I forgot =P typically in secondary school rumors is common. Well she happens to be the victim together with another guy. From her, it seems the rumor spread in the whole secondary 1. Poor girl! Seeing her like this reminds me of my SECONDARY days too when the rumor spread about ME and D***OND ha-ha… (Censored) It was worse then what she went through, hers was only among peers, mine had spread to seniors (until my brothers know about it too), juniors (his and mine) and teachers. You can imagine how horrible it is la. Well but it is the past. Now he is not in SP so I don’t really care la. =P After the students left I left too. Hehe need to go home le.

When I was on the bus, I saw one of my junior, look at her uniform makes me went “what the hell” the new principal had change the uniform slightly, but enough to affect the whole look of it. Instead of having collar badge it is banish to having the badge being stuck above the school name. It is totally degrading. The purpose of MS CHAMB wanting it to be a collar badge is because it feels more “high class” not that neighborhood school even though we were. I knew that the new principal had the problem of wearing the collar badge but changing it to this is not a very good solution. Moreover my school logo is circular it looks even UGLY. I might be in that school, but I CAME from that school. It seems he turn the school upside down by changing the entire syllabus for secondary 3. I am disappointed. I miss school; I will be going back thee soon to see all my beloved teachers.

Here I also want to congratulate MS WAN she is now married and has left the school. =)

7:01 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

a busy day!...

Ohaiyo!

Today was tiring cause i keep travlling here and there. In the morning, gor send me to clementi central. I went there to make my atm card and help mummy to post letters. the bank lady was so -.-'|' she change my name from "SHARILYN" --> "SHARILYIN" which sound so wrong, and how to pronounce? haha...that was the weird incident la...

From there i took 52 and go all the way to jurong east to make my ez-link card. Which is settled le. So now i have my ez-link card! =) From there i took the wrong bus, "52" thinking i took the bus was 105, i duno la a bit blur. Only realising when the bus turn before the stop when reach SP SB blocks. I board down the bus and waited for 74 to come. Which is very long. The bus 52 bus driver was very enthu and high. He said good morning to whoever that board up and byebye to whoever board down at every bus stop. So high..haha...

I reach dover meet taby, gave her birthday present to her (her birthday is 22 Dec) until now. Grow moulds alrdy =P jkjk...brought her to FC 3 to eat, and we found eggshell in our food. Haiz...nvm..

The core of my day! SPDP, haha, HIP HOP DANCE. I dont look as if i will do those kind of dance. But it was fun, and painful. As i hurt my back last week, haven really heal and now i am like dancing hip hop which strain alot on my back causing my back to hurt like hell now. It was super fun. (and we had a camera-man in our workshop, who took alot of photos in a lot of our poses, i wonder what he wants the photo for?)

From there i am suppose to meet Ms Angel to discuss something with her. But but, one of the officer tell me she fell ill. She got fever so go home first. Get well soon kkz...

Then i went club house! Saw SEAN, PEI XUAN, MEI HOON and JASON! All doing weaving, i go there put yakult bottles. =P den had to go off le. So from there i went off. Go to the toilet to change into proper clothing (i was wearing shorts).

From there i took a MRT down to Cityhall, was suppose to meet SHANG MING there, but he was late. So took a train down to Dhoby Ghuat. Waited for him there. I was having an interview at NGEE ANN CITY (where the hell is it was the 1st qn in my head when i heard the address) We took the train down to ORCHARD, he walk damn fast la, my back is like aching. HAiz, the interesting part: he hide behind one wall, den i was finding him. A very kind girl approach me and pointed to me where he was. Cool rite! Haha, but he claim to say that she took notice of him. Ok lor as you wish. Haha, but i serious wonder how she knew i was looking for him because she dont even know the 2 of us. =P maybe i look lost. We walk pass Wisma atria, wow my 1st time there. =P then was ngee ann city. We took the lift up to 12 floor, filled up the form and the interview start. Magdeline interview me, she was very kind and lively. Before i left she ask me a question which is not relevant to the interview. Want to know?hmmm...should i say..lets go by voting...haha tag my tag board if u want to know =P

After interview, we went to kinokuniya, because i got vouchers so go in there see what book can i get. Only to have a book drop on my head. Got balaku alrdy. Very pain lor. haha... after buying, SHANG MING play hide and seek again. I really duno where is the exit. sad...But in the end he appeared again. =P

From there, we went to meet VICTOR at raffles place. We did not recognizes him. Until he was in front of us waving. He was dress in a PINK shirt, with black long pants, still got belt and shoe (4get the shoe name =P) totally in office wear. Look so different. I admit he look shuai. VICTOR: dun blush =P He look so entriely different, ask him wear come school. =)

at raffles, we dimiss. All take different direction. I headed to clementi to buy groceries. Haha, housewife - in - training. Then headed back home.

(hopefully can get the job ba.=P )

Tired le...go watch anime 1st den slp..=P

10:08 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

anime!!!

I have never complete anime untill so shuang. I finish 4 anime series le. Is shuang lor. Haha, i have never watch anime watch until so shaung. What anime i watch ar? I watch lucky star they are so kawaii. And all 3 sets of lyrical magical nanoha.

Nanoha is so cool, especially all her powers, starlight breaker, divine buster, al the 3 different mode she has in her raging heart. =P not fogetting fate chan. I like yagami hayate also, though she cannot aim with rein zwei, but her book of darkness is cool enough le..=P I like 2 kawaii characters, =P (i mean in strikers) they are vivio she so kawaii and caro the dragon summoner. =P Rein zwei and agito also very cute! Any shuai boy boy? got la!*.* i only like one of them, =P it is chrono-kun. Haha, anime crazy le.

i like yuno-kun when he is a young boy ba, grow up not shuai, =P erio more shuai den him. =P Nanoha when young also very kawaii, fate also. Hayate grow up nicer, cos she can walk. Vita-chan is very powerful also. SHe is especially cute when she unison in with rein zwei. =P

I think i sound so wrong, boy also like, girls also like..=P I am straight, haha...but they are so kawaii. I am greatly influence by anime. Blame who? blame the person who lend me the DVDs. =P jkjk...starting on my 3rd series. ANyone wanna joined?

5:15 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

2 blog merge into 1!

why I merge 2 into 1..haha..lazy to open and close so many blog writer. =P And also I am suppose to blog last night, but fell asleep watching anime, because was lying on bed. Shuang already den sleep. So sorry to those who talk to me today "early" in the morning, I saw the msn at 4:51am. =P

Yesterday my topic was: when the feeling of hate grows...

I did not have very good dinner. Due to my mum nagging every single thing I am doing, my dad adding oil to the fire. After dinner I just went into the kitchen and never step out of there until they went up. Then I was filled with anger too, I sort of hate my mum (this is terribly wrong) for the fact I don’t understand why each time she speak to me is scolding and more scolding,. Why is there no time where we both can sit down and chat about my school life, my thinking etc. why does it always has to be scolding and scolding. All this while I had nobody to talk to, when I am in secondary school the feeling of being outcaste, the feeling of losing inter school competition, the feeling of winning competition, she knows none of it going on. Times where by I cried alone cause I lose an important inter school match was unheard. How much does she know about me? How much does she care for me? I force myself to understand on her part as a mother, but did she ever put herself in my shoe as a daughter? She herself is a daughter of my grandmother, but why can’t she treat me like how my grandmother treat her? Sometimes I just feel tired, I don’t understand why the relatives around me are asking me to talk to her, don’t they see the point, is not I do not want to talk to her, is I don’t know how to talk to her. I can’t talk to her like how I talk to many of my friends. Remembering once where she was admitted to hospital, my aunt, my grandmother plus the psychiatrist told me to talk to my mother, the next thing is I entered the room sat there and felt useless, cause I don’t know what to say other than pat her back can anyone feel the agony I felt then? The ice between us seem unbreakable I attempt to break it before, but I am just unable to do so. Talk so much also no use, maybe I have failed my job as a daughter.

Today post: weird dream and Market!

I woke up from a weirdest dream. I dreamt that I was in a place where animals were considered as toys as there was a curse by this lady who is my aunt. I had special powers which enable me to draw the past and present. So I was in my fathers’ factory (making toys) call the world II toy factory. When a aura hit me, I followed the feel, stop at a wall and draw 2 different lady with the same look, at the top of one lady written world I and the second world II. The world one was a gentle, elegant lady. While the world II was clean and pure but had blood stain on her clothes. I did not continued my dream, was woken up by my dad to go on duty.

I was on duty today, to go to the market with parents. As usual, market never fails to amaze me. Today not much fishes, so nothing much to explore. But chicken stall was cool, there written” chicken breast: 1 piece $1.70 3 pieces $5” cute? Haha, =P cause I studied entrepreneurship cause me to mentally calculate something, 1 piece $1.70, 3 pieces = $5.10 =P they counted it as $5 so easier to count. Had breakfast!!! With parents, quite long time since the 3 of us had breakfast together. =) but this time no nagging. I sat there and listen to their conversations. So here I am after marketing.

I am happy to say my 1st application of job is approved already. Now I am look for my 2nd job. =P

The smile is back on THE GIRL’S face, don’t worry…she is now stronger and hopefully happier. =)

10:35 AM sHaRiLyN LiM

When Silence is part of my life...

recently have not spoken alot. I myself sat down and think.. i truly dont reconigse myself this few days. Am i really myself? This is definitely not me. I am still not use to growing up, or maybe this is my first time encountering having my wholr whole turning upside down.

today what have i done? Morning i had breakfast, watch doraemon, watch anime and sms hoon hoon. Sorry to those who wanted to dragged me out. I just feel like staying at home to calm myself down. Lunchtime mummy and 2 brothers dragged me out to eat. after having lunch, mummy drove us to popo house. I headed for the bedroom to read doraemon comics. But only to be drag down by mummy to chit chat with popo. So i sat there and listen to them chat. Soon after came back home. And i am blogging here.

Later what am i doing? Watch anime and settle some work. Dont feel like cooking today. I might bake cookies on monday, hand feeling a bit itch.

Here want to thank SEAN for his stack of DVD of anime. I believe they will accompany me for the holidays. TAT HONG for his pokemon game. ZAIN for his harvest moon. MEI HOON for her companion by sms.

5:24 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

The day for stoning with deep current running under...

today i stayed at home and stone. Nothing much, I also duno what to do. Other then watching anime, tv and work, there is nothing for me to do. Feel so itch hand today, feel like baking cookies. But no ingredients and dont feel like going out to buy, so stay home stone.

On top of that i realise, yakult and coffee cannot drink too much. I am already experiencing side effects. Too much coffee will cause one's stomach to tun upside down and head for the toilet after each cup. Now my stomach is so weak, i must quit coffee and stick back to milo. Yakult? cannot take more then 3 bottles, or you will really clean your digestive system.

Mood wise? Thanks benny for dropping ur sms during lunch time. Cos today kept myself in room the whole day. So mood today not any better, but today no tears. Just no smiles. I hope i can smile when i go back to school on Monday, I promise Ms Angel that i will be who i am the 2 weeks before when she saw me.

feeling part? I trying to put a stop to all feelings. I am going to be in a numb state. Forget all the past, whatever that has bygone let it go. I want to start afresh now. Be who i am, and not letting people control who i am. From all this happenings for the past weeks, i know that i have friends who truly support me. Though they might not be the perfect friends, at least i do hope they are true. As for the ones that betray me? I will forgive them, no point trying to get to revenge, as Shang Ming say, there is no point in doing so. As victor has said, treat the person even better, cause one day i want to let them know, in order to have true friends we must be true friends 1st.

Thus here, i wanna take the chance to thank MEI HOON, you are one which i truly see as a true friend whom will hold me when i fall. Plus, SHANG MING, who was a great source of encouragements whenever i fall. VICTOR, who taught me how to be happy, though i did not really use it much, but i appreciate your effort. DACAI, cannot forget you thanks for acting like babybear to cheer me up and your morning (3am) msn. RACHEL for your occasional care and concern. The last person to thank is MS ANGEL! She isnt really that bad as we think, she was the one that cause me to think deeply. Thanks!

On Monday, hopefully you will see the SHARILYN who once stand up after her fall. I will stand on my feet once more. I promise!

9:32 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

what the hell...

i have just lose another important thing in my life. My mp3 player, which is given to me by my 2nd brother. Something which is very important to me. I was looking high and low, but i confirm know i lose it outside. While walking back to school from clementi, i cried. i scolded outloud, i scold ti gong. I scold him for taking whatever that is important in my life. Do you know how terrible it feels to have your mum scolding u using harsh words.I lose the necklace she gave me, it was in my wallet and i lose it. she said "你没有把我买给你的东西放在眼里" she said i treat it as a unimportant item. But cant she see, cos i feel it is an important item tat is why i bring it around me, so i will feel my mum is by my side. Cant she see this?

I cried the whole night. She banned me from going school today, but because i wanted to help rachel i went down to meet tat hong 1st. And on the way i lose my mp3 player. i have been crying for the past week. I feel so terrible. I have been trying to cheer myself up, but only to sink into it deeper each time. When i was walking back to school, i realise how alone i was. How sad it can feel.

2 very important persons i would like to thank here is Zain and Ms Angel. After looking for Ms Angel she held me back, she was asking me why my eyes were red and puffy. She told me to treat her as a elder sister and talk things out. Then i chatted with her. She told me, each lady in this world i a super woman. Why? Many had to be a good wife, a good daughter, a good mother, a good employer (if have maid), a good employee (if working for someone) etc. Then i realise what she said was true, many us here are trying to be good daughter, good student etc. We cant accomplish all at once. She told me to cheer up. She wants to see the Sharilyn she saw a few weeks back. She also told me not to drop into the depression state and tried to cheer me up. Thank Ms Angel, I realise your source of encouragement is what i truly need then.

Zain, i need to thank him for his treat. He treat me a cup of slurpee. Thanks that was the 1st intake of the day. He attempt to make me smiled. And of course one of his meassage which he send was "you can trust me if no one you can believe k?" he suddenly make me realise that i had someone who cared.

2 more people whom i want to thank on top of those two above is mei hoon and shang ming. Mei hoon had sms to show her concern, thanks hoon, i hope i am ok. And shang ming, who dropped sms on whether i am doing well, trying to cheer me up. And offered his listening ears.

Thanks, i know i have friends who truly care for me. But my world seems to be crashing. I really duno what to do. Tell me everything is alright.

2:28 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

CNY Project

Sorry to all my friends, i apologise for not being able to appear there tml. I know it looks abit weird, organising chariperson but not there. Please meet tat hong.

Thanks tat hong and sorry for all the problems caused for u.

Meanwhile, my next post will talk on what happen. kkz

sorry...

2:57 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Parents are all the same!!!

I realise most parents are the same. And i am sure i am not the only one going through what i am going through. In SP Env club there are girls that are going through the same thing ba.

Feel frustrate because parents are controlling too much? Feel they KPO too much? Feel there is no freedom? Feel they treat you like a young kid? Nagging? This are what i am going through and i feel most of your had went through it.

I remember i rebeled once, i was then very rebellious, can't see right? Not very la, just defy orders. Then i was really tied until i could not breathe. I was damn frustrated i rebeled. What i rebel i will not say here. But now? Changed, i became a gil who is very guai. Ever ask myself why...and here are the explanations.

None of the 3 kids at my house would want to let my mum angry. We respect her as our mum. She does not have very good mental health. I remember when i was young she use to chase me around with the cane. I regret making her angry. We love her as our mother, we respect her as one, we feel the pain of her carrying both my brothers at once, carrying me the second for 10 months. We feel her suffering when we were kids. We are able to forgive her even she scold us wrongly, because she is our mother. Many will rebutt back to their mum, and feels human rights are still there, but sometimes, we can swollow down. All for a reason that she vrought me up. MAny thinks that she bring me up so? wat rights does she have to control me? All because she is your mother, and what she is doing is becuase she loves us. At times we dun see this until we become parents ourselves. Different parents love their kids in different ways, but no parents will not love their children.

father, when we were young haha, nobody dare to make him angry, all afraid of his whacking. We use to call it "UFOs" i got many whackings till i cannot rmb how many i got. The worse? Crashing of my room with my brother shielding me. Or i will not exist here. but now,i am a daddy's girl! Haha, even though now daddy objects in a lot activities i wanted to participate, i really do understand, cos he worry for my safety, one sentence which he said that really touch down in to my heart was"如果你出事的话那我不是没有女儿了" this truly show he truly care for me. That is why at times his objection makes me give in. Though i will give in, but if i really wants to participate in the activities, jsut beggin him a few times, he will give in too. His care for me is not normal, he doesn't really show it out, but show it in a indirectly manner.

So parents are still parents. =) smiles, i am already accepting them as who they are. They are not perfect, they scold me for no reasona times. Unless there is really a need i wont rebutt back to them.

(i duno why i am talking abt this post.)

Happy valentines day to everyone =|

2:30 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

yesterday!!! +++ today!!! (lots of photos!!!)

Yesterday we had SPDP training, which was COMPULSORY!!!so cannot pon tang...=P jkjk..so of us were revising on how to fold a grasshoppers, snake, ketupat, and also new! roses. nothing much happen yesterday. But, unfortunately i lost my wallet, ='|...i never lose much things, my ATM card, my ez link card, money + my necklace (this is the most painful one)

today!!!
SPDP workshop which is not compulsory! haha...but most of us went, i took bus to sch, and frm the MRT station there was a bright green light, with envrironment club aura. haha.sean, mei hoon, jessica, ke xin and pei xuan were there. waiting to hwee ru. But pei xuan-->副校长cannot wait, she need to meet grace, so she left 1st. So we waited, from standing to kneeling den to sitting. *pooF* hwee ru appeared! haha...jkjk...

the workshop, hmmm....the students learn pretty fast, and they were quite nice! my group all from DBS!!! i paired with jessica, after teaching them, haha, just what we did? taking picture everywhere big or small. Heck la, just take =P so below are all the photos, there are more at jessica's side =) must ask her send =) so here are the photos =):


















Mono and flowers!!!
















Mono with more flowers!!!
























Mei Hoon and her student...=) smiles






















Mei Hoon is the main chracter!!!





















DBS students!!!! with a DEWT (sean) student at the background!




















Tat was sean covering pei xuan...pei xuan is only as big as a coconut leave =P



BabyBEar wat are you doing???







HIDE!!!




















she was taking my photo of me taking photo of her!







i was taking photo of her taking photo of me!

11:37 AM sHaRiLyN LiM