SO BORING!!!!
if i can be blogging here..wat do you think? haha...oops...
sianz...
i have not been doing good things here..haiz...all the archiving that is cleared so fast...i am damn bored...i still thought it would be an exciting place to be..yet..here i am blogging away...omg..still got time to settle my environment things!!!
lol..
and wat else? i finish watching 败犬女王 how nice? watching it during work..i guess my boss will fire me if he reads this..how? oh well...if that is suppose to be like that then so be it..cos they do not much thus for me this INTERN to do..what else can i do?
haiz...
18june i am going to take leave for BYEE camp...probably get a pay deduction...oh well..shagged...
talking about 败犬女王 it just remind me of a junior that i use to be very close with...=D i really really did miss him...but everything is over.. "sorry, its too late~" is all i want to tell him...i am sorry for hurting you..guess then i was just stubborn and just felt threaten with another person's presence...maybe because i got low self esteem...maybe because then I did not trust myself...but...its all too late...little child has grown up...little strawberry has ripen...
as i am sitting here i daydream...ya..so free to even day dream...remembering about my year 1...the torturous writing of proposal and running the ply 50 that never seem t end...remembering the controlled life i use to have...16 then...young and naive...having a boyfriend in school being loved and pampered then was sweet and nice...celebrating his birthday in a not very romantic place of a sports complex i still remember "still light candle~ release carbon footprint" can you guess who he is?
year 2, filled with loneliness...being suspended from environment club was hell..yet...i am still glad to have a lot of friends from there...1st time being a senior in poly...i always remember the envirofest preparation...that was the time i got to know dan dan, and little child...dan dan was very hyper and little child was emo-ing...both my fun loving kids...wahaha...that very same year i receive a bear bear from dan dan..haha...so many people thought it was a love token..so many rumour...who would have expect that i was closer to little child...yet..it did not last long..."friendship does not last forever" was what we said...but i never expect it to end so soon...all the little memories we once shared between us can you still remember? i did..very clearly in my mind...you must be wondering what is there to reminisce are you still reading my blog..even if you did you will no long tag...
in year 2, i got closer to my ~~~~~..we shared and suffered lots of happiness and sadness and anger...please do not hope too much..to all my jie jie and gor gor..you probably wont hear any wedding bells any sooner...haha...i still want to change clothes..at least wedding bell is not in my 10 years plan...
year 3? eventful...so many major events, made friends and germany!!! FYP.. and many many more...being a senior in environment club was indeed very tiring and stress..yet when you see the fruits of your labour..i cant help but to feel that all is worthy...and who will have expect here i am sitting here blogging this...
everyone reminisce...all i want to say here..is little child..thank you for all the memories..for that whole 1 year..you were always the one who protected this jie jie..cheer her up with sweets, and Halloween goodie bag..the shoulder that you lend for me to cry in my sadness then smile that you gave when i am happy..the habit of nonsensically taking train and say stop den stop...studying together at the teaching blocks of SP..and many many more..metting after lesson for ice creams and foodies..the evening ice cream at foodcourt 3..is well remembered...
little child..year 3 le wor...going to graduate le..no longer little child le..must jiayou kk? more importantly smile..dun fake you smile..dun emo and hide in 1 corner...because everyone including you..deserve to be treated well with sincerity...since my time with you is over..but i know you will meet someone who will treat you like i treat you or even better...jiayou in all your en devours...
curious how much i change? here it is:
Dunno how old is this, but i look so cute~
Poly year 1, so nerd~haha...

Year 2, after rebonding hair...

Year 3 / graduated~
all still dun look nice~
i write too much le...
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