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Sunday, June 13, 2010

a broken globe, a broken world...

I broke my globe..saddening..it was given to me..i will always remember its presence..it was given to me because i was so sad over being suspended from ENV a few years ago..it was suppose to tell me that there is still a perfect place..

and now..it broke..i am no longer in the perfect globe where snows always form and peace will come after a shake...i am release to a harsh reality of broken glass and hurt..but why am i reacting in this way? why why whY!!! i am suppose to be positve...but i cant seem too..

today..had a family out dinner at sakura..everything was so intense..i have not taken dinner with my dad for a very long time..all i had in my stomach was guilt and more of it..i serious do not know how to face him till i told my mum i did not want to go..but she insisted as my grandma is going..

i probably did not eat up the value that was paid for..what a waste..but i just felt too awkward to eat..and keep remembering what he say.."你还吃得下?我看到你我就吃不下!" that was the reason why i have not been home for dinner...i just did not want to spoil his appetite for food...perhaps i am a unfillial daughter in the end that do not deserve to live on and waste resources...

if it was joyce she would be scolding me about what is all these emo shit and lamenting about on sharilyn's blog..honestly..i do not know..i just..EMO..family matters are the hardest to settle and run away from unless i give my life back or i bleed myself dead...

maybe, family bond will solve it, but as to now..i do not see it yet..

nites people..

by the way i adopted a new god bro~


9:48 PM sHaRiLyN LiM



YOU LEFT ME ALONE;

since the day the truth was out,
i realize how foolish i was,
to hold on to that glimpse of hope,
that exist as a mirage in the desert.

it destroyed my day and night,
with only darkness settling in,
and rain followed close by
i had try with all my might,
to get i want,
but since this is fated,
just like the sun never meets the moon,
you will never be mine.
i am letting it all go,
in the freedom of the blowing wind.

i no longer walk side by side with you,
leaving my footprints by yours,
my existence only live in the past,
i will stand by you like the stars in the sky,
so near yet so far.

we were once so closed
always not wanting to part,
all i am keeping in my heart,
is the memories we had once shared,
you might have forgotten it long ago,
but it has engraved it in my book of heart.

that promise we made,
is not fulfilled,
it will never be fulfilled either,
locked in the treasure chest of heart,
only you can unlock it,
till then it will be an empty promise you had made.

the rain you left me in,
is cold and chilling,
it had washed away my tears,
and it has awaken me to know you never did love me..



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ThE OwNer..
Name-->[Lim Pei Yun Sharilyn]
Age -->[19 yrs old goin on 20]
Just Gotten a Job-->[Graduated from SP ]
Belong to-->[Lim Family]
2nd home -->[SP Environment Club alumni network and SEC Youthabitat]
that day..-->[20 Dec 1990 ]
hoRrOrScoPe-->[SaGgi..]
e-mail --> [sharilynlim08@hotmail.com]

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Everlastiinq My Bros
Everlastiinq Friends
Everlastiinq Chocolates
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Hates
the vulgarities

liars
BackSTABBERS
betrayers
the RUDES

Wishes
[1] to be my true self
[2] freedom..
[3] get into university
[4] wonderful friends..
[5] peaceful life...
[6] to be well loved..
[7] to be able to do my part for the earth
[6] to be able to love the unfortunate children
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Myself yourself - violin piano

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Fonts by: Dafont
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More About Me..
i am no longer the girl:
-who sits alone
-without a friend
-with the knife
-who looks at sorrow
-seeking out missery
-who hates her life
-wanting everything to end
-making her life bleak

i am still the girl:
-that is unknown
-that follows
-that seeks
-that is naughty
-that is playful
-who seeks affection
-with the smiles =)
but those who seek shall find the secrets of me...
Whispers...



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