Monday, June 21, 2010
stay tune~
i am going to update about BYEE camp 2010..
BYEE camp was indeed a reminiscing...i miss the time that we had..this year we were side dishes..there was a brand new main course..indeed some were appetizing and some were irritating..
i would say i had lots of fun with the new batch...yet at the same time i did not learn as much as last year..saddening rite? haiz...haha...
it was so much fun in playing games with them so call torturing...what was more fun was to see some irritating people cui their game when they shouted "its so easy"~ it falls on fathers day, so we had a mini surprise for aik kiat...
the farewell dinner was always so great..i am glad that i attended it..me, lester and rachel had gotten a step closer to each other and together with sally and aik kiat..
sorry for being so late in updating this as i was super tired..i believe some of you would have caught the pictures in facebook...smiles... so i wont post it up here..too lazy to do so..have a stack of books to mark...
things in my family hasnt got better but turn out to be worse...seriously dunno what to do about it..
escaping is not the solution many people told me...but other than that..i do not really know how to go solve it..haiz..
12:35 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Sunday, June 13, 2010
a broken globe, a broken world...
I broke my globe..saddening..it was given to me..i will always remember its presence..it was given to me because i was so sad over being suspended from ENV a few years ago..it was suppose to tell me that there is still a perfect place..
and now..it broke..i am no longer in the perfect globe where snows always form and peace will come after a shake...i am release to a harsh reality of broken glass and hurt..but why am i reacting in this way? why why whY!!! i am suppose to be positve...but i cant seem too..
today..had a family out dinner at sakura..everything was so intense..i have not taken dinner with my dad for a very long time..all i had in my stomach was guilt and more of it..i serious do not know how to face him till i told my mum i did not want to go..but she insisted as my grandma is going..
i probably did not eat up the value that was paid for..what a waste..but i just felt too awkward to eat..and keep remembering what he say.."你还吃得下？我看到你我就吃不下!" that was the reason why i have not been home for dinner...i just did not want to spoil his appetite for food...perhaps i am a unfillial daughter in the end that do not deserve to live on and waste resources...
if it was joyce she would be scolding me about what is all these emo shit and lamenting about on sharilyn's blog..honestly..i do not know..i just..EMO..family matters are the hardest to settle and run away from unless i give my life back or i bleed myself dead...
maybe, family bond will solve it, but as to now..i do not see it yet..
nites people..
by the way i adopted a new god bro~
9:48 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Friday, June 11, 2010
Feelings were pouring in today...i had no mood to play psp today on the train..but stand there with my mickey mouse mp3 and listen to musics...
i thought about my blog..the world of growing up..and realise how much the content of this blog change..from the little girl who complains about having no freedom and being un-fun to this girl that is pushed into the working world that she does not belong too...
i look around me..and saw:
people trickling into the train,
just like the dripping rain,
some seated down,
all with a frown,
the common point,
most were asleep,
going to dream land for a slip,
the train was the bedroom,
for many other people...
while others having a nap,
i was got a slap,
from the crude reality,
many years later,
i might be like them,
going for materiality...
I start to ask myself..many things out there stop me from going to organise green activities, i know i still can be eco by starting with the girl in the mirror. But i want to do more then that..i want to be involve that is my passion yet so far away....
maybe i am just a growing up girl that do not know anything truth in this reality...is it? or there were never smooth sailing life that many people are after for..
8:46 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Thursday, June 10, 2010
tuition is getting back on track..fathers day is next week..
i was teaching the kids how to make fathers day card...i was think back about myself...
fathers' day is next sunday..yet I did not make any cards and i am not going to go home too..will be out for a camp..
escaping for weeks..how long can this go on? I have no idea..as long as i do not enter uni~ part time degree? sad to say, no way...its either NTU or NUS, i would not settle for anything lower..yet at the same time...i am considering overseas~ I feel like going overseas to study medicine..and be a doctor..that was my dream when i was young? possible? i think my brains are not up to that standard...what do i want to be??????????????
such a simple question yet so vexed..yet i am not able to answer!!!!haiz...i feel like suiciding...now i am like working for the sake of working..work hard, tuition hard, and environment hard...so little time so many things to do..
still i will not give up on the environment..
still...
smile people..
11:40 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Monday, June 7, 2010
another weekend gone by...
how was yours? Mine was interesting and meaningful.. I was out at Plaza Sing doing an anti littering campaign. Bringing the kids out to engage with the public not to litter..GOH was Dr Yacob...
Saturday was pack due to giving tuition and rushed down to do the decorations for the booth, check it out!
But the long bus trip home made me feel ill and late lunch at 5pm make me feel like vomiting...so, i was skip dinner..
Sunday early morning at 730am i was out of my house heading to plaza sing by bus..long bus trip again..and i am engross in my psp again..wahaha...felt like vomiting..guess i am born with motion sickness and cat be healed...hehex...
gather the kids, chat and wait wait wait..had free mac breakfast..was chatting with lester, long time never see him so we had lots of catching up to do..at 11 plus we lead the students from Northlight and Anderson sec to 313 somerset to engage their public to pledge to not to litter..it is indeed tough for them..though tough but they persevere on..
Stalking the stalker =P
The students
Dr Yacob flagging off the event...i was right in front of him.. =P
Asking the public
Me and Tau Hua from PCK
polar bear!!!
Before the launch
During the long walk
me with the public =D
then we head back for lunch...was developing headache then...still had lots of fun...though fun..if I am to really evaluate on this event..i will..not pass it..=P the duration of the whole event is so short..planning and doing up the things took days..but the actual even is not even 1 hour..the kids were indeed disappointed..on top of that it was at the orchard area so there were lots of foreigner, it feels kind of weird to ask foreigners to keep Singapore clean when its actually the jobs of Singaporeans...hmmm....*scratch head*
Went back home, due to the headache slept throughout the bus ride...clean up my room and slept at 630pm!!! i was that shagged..only to wake up at 8pm but fell back to sleep again till today morning...12 hours of sleep...nice...now rotting in office again...
in total i lost a weight of 3kg!!! from weighing 57kg now i am only 54kg...recently all my jeans felt as if it is going to fall off my butt...
9:18 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Saturday, June 5, 2010
在宁静的房间里
我问我自己
在这个大大的世界里
由我这个小小的我
在我这个生命里
应产割舍么力量？
我生命里的目标到底是？
将来的我对社会付出设么贡献？
at the quiet room,
i ask myself deeply,
at this big big world,
there is small small me,
in my life,
what is the hidden strength in me?
what is the purpose of the existence of my life
what is my goal in life,
in the future how will i contribute to the society?
wahahaha...in chinese and english..=D
recently have been shagged..spoiling my own body, still dare to say..wahaha...have been so pack with so many stuff every piece of me is utilise..i wonder how many more kg have i lost? all my jeans seem getting looser and looser..i have been working so hard..that i have ask myself...why am i working so hard? despo for money?
actually i dunno..i am just numbing myself with work work and more work..while looking for the answer in my life...
smile everybody...
find the happiness in yourself...only then you will know what is happiness..
8:40 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
Friday, June 4, 2010
Yo Blog readers~
today's post is to promote an environment event that will be held this SUNDAY 6th of june 2010 at Plaza Singapura from 11am to 5pm. If you are planning to go there shopping or have fun. Do drop by and pledge!!
Pledge that you will not litter or
Please do not leave your unwanted things unattended. If you see any suspicious looking litter or rubbish, please inform our staff or dial the 1800-CALL NEA (1800-2255 632)located at MEWR building thank you (sound familiar?)see below..
(p.s Please do not leave your belongings unattended, if you see any suspicious person or article, please inform our staff by pressing the emergency button located at the side of the train door. Thank you)
yeah..hope to see many people supporting us.. =D
9:01 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
Thursday, June 3, 2010
SO BORING!!!!
if i can be blogging here..wat do you think? haha...oops...
sianz...
i have not been doing good things here..haiz...all the archiving that is cleared so fast...i am damn bored...i still thought it would be an exciting place to be..yet..here i am blogging away...omg..still got time to settle my environment things!!!
lol..
and wat else? i finish watching 败犬女王 how nice? watching it during work..i guess my boss will fire me if he reads this..how? oh well...if that is suppose to be like that then so be it..cos they do not much thus for me this INTERN to do..what else can i do?
haiz...
18june i am going to take leave for BYEE camp...probably get a pay deduction...oh well..shagged...
talking about 败犬女王 it just remind me of a junior that i use to be very close with...=D i really really did miss him...but everything is over.. "sorry, its too late~" is all i want to tell him...i am sorry for hurting you..guess then i was just stubborn and just felt threaten with another person's presence...maybe because i got low self esteem...maybe because then I did not trust myself...but...its all too late...little child has grown up...little strawberry has ripen...
as i am sitting here i daydream...ya..so free to even day dream...remembering about my year 1...the torturous writing of proposal and running the ply 50 that never seem t end...remembering the controlled life i use to have...16 then...young and naive...having a boyfriend in school being loved and pampered then was sweet and nice...celebrating his birthday in a not very romantic place of a sports complex i still remember "still light candle~ release carbon footprint" can you guess who he is?
year 2, filled with loneliness...being suspended from environment club was hell..yet...i am still glad to have a lot of friends from there...1st time being a senior in poly...i always remember the envirofest preparation...that was the time i got to know dan dan, and little child...dan dan was very hyper and little child was emo-ing...both my fun loving kids...wahaha...that very same year i receive a bear bear from dan dan..haha...so many people thought it was a love token..so many rumour...who would have expect that i was closer to little child...yet..it did not last long..."friendship does not last forever" was what we said...but i never expect it to end so soon...all the little memories we once shared between us can you still remember? i did..very clearly in my mind...you must be wondering what is there to reminisce are you still reading my blog..even if you did you will no long tag...
in year 2, i got closer to my ~~~~~..we shared and suffered lots of happiness and sadness and anger...please do not hope too much..to all my jie jie and gor gor..you probably wont hear any wedding bells any sooner...haha...i still want to change clothes..at least wedding bell is not in my 10 years plan...
year 3? eventful...so many major events, made friends and germany!!! FYP.. and many many more...being a senior in environment club was indeed very tiring and stress..yet when you see the fruits of your labour..i cant help but to feel that all is worthy...and who will have expect here i am sitting here blogging this...
everyone reminisce...all i want to say here..is little child..thank you for all the memories..for that whole 1 year..you were always the one who protected this jie jie..cheer her up with sweets, and Halloween goodie bag..the shoulder that you lend for me to cry in my sadness then smile that you gave when i am happy..the habit of nonsensically taking train and say stop den stop...studying together at the teaching blocks of SP..and many many more..metting after lesson for ice creams and foodies..the evening ice cream at foodcourt 3..is well remembered...
little child..year 3 le wor...going to graduate le..no longer little child le..must jiayou kk? more importantly smile..dun fake you smile..dun emo and hide in 1 corner...because everyone including you..deserve to be treated well with sincerity...since my time with you is over..but i know you will meet someone who will treat you like i treat you or even better...jiayou in all your en devours...
curious how much i change? here it is:
Dunno how old is this, but i look so cute~
Poly year 1, so nerd~haha...
Year 2, after rebonding hair...
Year 3 / graduated~
all still dun look nice~
i write too much le...
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4:05 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
But the long bus trip home made me feel ill and late lunch at 5pm make me feel like vomiting...so, i was skip dinner..
