my mood have been hitting rock bottom, not able to come up and breathe...everyday seem so moodless for me..
uni application result is out..as expected i did not get in..though i told myself many times before and prepared myself for this day...and not hold on to any hopes but i still chose to hold onto that glimpse of hope...and the sorrow hit me hard enough..what adds on more are my parents..not words of comfort...but words of harshness...
expected it though..unlike many family...mine was different..i wasnt able to be like what alcina said, never get in, nevermind, not the end of the world still got many routes to go...but now i am truly lost..i really do not know what to do...
Mrs adeline koh is so nice to lend me a helping hand..she just help me out in the appealing..yet..i dunno why...i lost that light in me...i could not smile truly and that is burdening me in my internship...
as i am in sorrow, i numb myself with my intern project by trying hard and fast to complete it...each time when works end...other den monday, tuesday and thursday, i hang my head low not knowing how to face my parents at home...that is why, if any of u have a job for me to do on wednesday, friday, saturday and sunday...please inform me..i wanna work..cos i dun want to go home...
mothers' day is on sunday...and i just given my mum the worse gift...
graduation is round the corner..my parents won't attend it, i wont want them to attend too..as i will be a shame to them...do i even want to go?
maybe a pursue in passion was a wrong step to take...
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3:20 PM sHaRiLyN LiM