i have been trying to be happy this few days...
i guess...
i fake well..
i guess...
i lied well....
i guess i am a liar....
though i had a huge cry...but i cant seem to control myself..when i think on how near graduation is near by...
i sms my mum today..on whether is she coming..its 4 days to grad..yet...i am feeling no happiness..so many friends around me are like "my parents are coming..." and stuff like tat...yet...my 2 tix are not out...still with me...i just dun want to think abt it..cos it makes me sad...
work work work work work...
go work early in the morning..after work go tuition, saturday go tuition, sunday going for tuition teaching...
not i don't want to face my parents...1 day i will have to...but if i face them now..what they will ask is what do i want to do now...my answer is still dont know despite all the planning and stuff like tat... "DUNNO~" will only pissed my parents off..and other then that i dun really know how to tell them..so avoid...
as for environment..yes i am on the verge to giving up..
till thanks to yiting, lester..they are pulling me...giving me the fuel even though yiting is losing steam too...i seriously cannot imagine myself without environment...would i be just another worker out there?
i am just angry with myself..for being so useless in decision making...
anyone in for L4D? i just wanna vent out feelings...
4:26 PM sHaRiLyN LiM