merry christmas...

hmm..so wat have you been doing during christmas?

this year christmas is pretty bland..and really no mood for it..ytd had a not very enjoyable gathering at my grandaunt house cos i practically dunno any one..and had to call ppl who are younger den me uncle and auntie...

today...i was suppose to get work done...but totally no mood for it..feeling so lethagic..brains are moving..but the hand just doesnt wanna work...just wanna hide...

after christmas is over...it will be hell...there are things to do..and i have to start clearing all of it...smile smile..stay happy...

jiayou jiayou...lets start clearing the smaller ones..might be easier to clear...


Chocolates~

chocolate a common gifts for christmas or birthday...

If someone said chocolate make people happy... that person is a LIAR~

i ate chocolate in hope i would be happy...but i didnt...i got more sad...cos i felt fatter... i though the 1 chocolate was not enough so...i increase the dosage and felt more sad...

haha...jkjk....

merry christmas~

8:41 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

going towards a blur-er future...

Today went to repair spectacles..but the optician say that my specs is blur due to the wearing off of the coating on the lens. And my degree has increase quite a bit. To many it doesn't really matter, but to me it matters a lot as it means towards a blur-er future..

so you must be thinking why am i so emo? IF you know me and seen me..you would realize my glasses are relatively thick...ya..that is because my degree is real high...my right eye is currently now 1175 with 200 astigma, and left eye is 1050 with 150 astigma...i am so blind...

after the guy fitted a tester for me to try on while trying to figure out my degree, i realize i was living in a rather blur world...that explains why i keep taking the wrong bus seeing 963 as 106...

how how how? the cost of the specs is weighing me down...though dad was the one who pay it..but i feel so guilty..cos of my pair of blur eyes...

now i am really blur like sotong...

9:22 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Smiles smiles~

THANKS THANKS TO:
ALCINA
KENNETH
NICK
MEI HOON

its a simple birthday gathering they did for me...so touch...it was raining cats and dogs...but it did not damper our spirit...

Alcina greeted me with a nice nice balloon...

tada:


we head to botanic garden and celebrated my birthday in a shelter with its roof leaking water, but ken had poncho so we tied it at the roof and squeeze below...the 4 of us crap and eat eat eat a lot alot of food...and play cards...

simple and nice...so touch...

Alcina doing a stunt...

nick talk to my hand~

tada...popping a champagne...

Cheers~

2 drunken man~

after that we went to dunno where to play L4D 2...haha..1st time playing...so fun haha...shoot shoot...my name was blueberry cupcake...and all the jockey and charger and tanker keep attacking me...must be they like blueberry a lot play for 1 and half hour...tada, alcina gave me my part 2 pressies..

den we go over to west mall on bus...talk talk talk...until reach bukit batok...den meet until mei hoon...we went to KFC, had eating again...den here comes the cake~ its a panda cake...yum yum...cut the cake and eat the cake..den got this indian toddler who was so interested in my cake and balloon at the other end of the glass door..so gave him 1 cup cake...he look so sad when i was leaving...

My Birthday Cake~


My birthday cake with 19 years old candle...



Make a wish~

Stab the cake~


The toddler~

once again..i had a lot of fun in tis birthday outing...thanks for all the gifts and throwing this mini gathering...really really touch by it... =D

8:04 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Holiday How are you spending it? hmmmm....dunno...all i know is there are a lot of work to do!!! =D

so lets not talk about work..dull and boring...hmm...lets speak about Environmental Politics at Copenhagen...

I am not supportive to the people who stage the riot!!! If you truly care of the environment then speak PEACE~ this is absolutely not the right way to show your voice...VIOLENCE? you think this rocks? it sucks to the core...if you care for the polar bears and stuff, have you care for the HUMANS around you? Any idea if you hurt the HUMANS around you? To love others, please Love yourself!!!

I am not anti-environmentalist...like duh~ i am a environmentalist myself...but this is not the way to show politicians how we feel...VIOLENCE get you nowhere...Dun let people have the concept that environmentalist are a bunch of barbaric people who are uneducated and pick rubbish by the road claiming to go green...HELLO!!! we are all civilize, if the POLITICIANS are already discussing about this environment problem, can you guys sit and listen??? STOP being impatient!!! So what if it drags for another few days? We all have been waiting for YEARS Since RACHEL CARSON's times..she is like no longer around and we are seeing her FRUIT of her labour...so can you guys WAIT!!!

Disappointed in those Environmentalist who stage a riot~ there are many ways to show your feelings...but riot is not a correct way to show it...It would be better if you can show it by doing fruitful actions...like doing a petition letter or doing roadshow promoting green issues then to spend this money on rioting~

Lets stop being negative...stop all the facts that polar bears will die, whales will extinct, mosquito will spread, countries will drown. STOP!!! Can we be more optimistic? This concept is not WORKING on people..it simply turns them OFF...." Die die LO" cause of the continuation of this negative propaganda it is turning people off and they simply don't care~ The polar bears are not in their sight...so what if you can take polar bears drowning? do they care? no they don't...so what if you say they country is drowning, as long as its not happening now, they can't feel it now..they don't care... Can we be more positive? POSITIVE!!! no point trying to frighten them, it will not work~ it will only BACKFIRE... Every Effort of each human is worthy, that makes us the world...so why start turning 1 human and the other off... Start to persuade them positively...not saying " if you don't go green, the polar bears will drown" THEY DON'T CARE!!! Not everyone is like us, who wants our next generations to see polar bears, to see the nature that we see...The challenge to environmental problem, is to convey the message in a POSITIVE way, can you do it?

Letter to the Politicians

To the politicians,

A salute to you, glad you have taken the 1st step to embark on environmental solution but there is a long way to go. Since u guys have all decided to sit down and discuss over environment. We as citizens of the world hope to receive good news on environmental solutions. Please make your carbon footprint by taking a plane be useful.

You have come upon on a Global Stage where your performance will be judge by the audience of the world. We hope that you will not be a selfish evil person who wish to guard on your own country. There is no such thing as " What can I can i benefit..." since its a global stage, we are looking for a global solutions, so no names of your country. You are the chosen ones by your citizens to speak, We all hope you can do a good job to speak like a politicians, feel like a citizens.

No one is asking you to sacrifice your economy to go green. Believe that, Economy and Environment protection can be together. They can co-exist! We are not demanding you to go back to primitive age living in shabby condition. We don't need to give up on what we have now, we just need to re-think what we want. Its the same, I will not want to give up my laptop just to go green, but I will re-think what I want, I want the Earth to be save, I use my laptop to save the Earth communications and many more. You can use Environment to drive the Economy, that is GREEN ECONOMY. You do not need me to tell you this, because you people are high up there speaking for me.

Ignorance is not allowed, you are educated, way educated then the citizens..we hope you can use your intelligence to be good use for you, for me, for the citizens of the world, and the future generations to come.

Signing off,

Sharilyn
a small environmentalist


~A small effort can make a big difference...if I can do it, so can you~

9:12 AM sHaRiLyN LiM

re-feeling of the pain of losing a friend...

its getting closer to my birthday...tat is why i felt the intensity of pain...went to look all the pressie tat i receive last year...and saw that pressie from a lost friend..the pain just shot straight into me...

been keeping myself busy day and night so i will not think of anything...guess..i cannot run away from it...yup..friends come and go..yet true friends dun come easily...*poof* i lost a friend...

and i felt the pain again...seeing the pressie...that explains the explosion of emo...no mood for holiday cos of the freakingly sucking MST, nearing birthday reminds me of the past years on how i cried and stuff..and losing a friend...or did i coop myself at home for too long?

i dunno..

7:14 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

MST IS OVER!!!

i am suppose to blog yesterday...but was taking care of bro...he fell sick...running high fever...so i became a nurse...nursing him with towel trying to bring his temperature down...

so tired...~

slept today afternoon...nice sleep...

hmmm..enough about it...after so long...my SPCA stuff are here... =D my 2010 diary and calendar!!! wooohoo... cos i was thinking of getting one..since i wanna get 1..den get 1 for a good cause...but travelling to SPCA is so far..so i embark learning on how to make postal order and get it all done up... =D

MST is over...yet there are lots of things to do...
Environment projects - Eco bus, and byee
Final year project to complete up
a few more reports to do...

blah blah blah till i cannot remember... =D

My birthday is coming!!!! its 19th...hmmm...but it doesnt feel it is coming...pressie!!! haha...this year there are not a lot of things i want...but dunno why...maybe last year all of your spam me...=D i receive so many love last year..all spam me with soft toy...more then i ever own my whole 18 years of life..this year...no more soft toy...no space to put...i dun have more den alcina...but i dun have so many love to give so many soft toy..haha...

this year...things tat i can use...yup..so whenever i use them, i will remember all of the people who gave it to me... =D

this year got no wish...but fear...

where am i going after poly?

i wonder~

7:51 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

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today's immunology paper was not that bad still do-able..working hard and strong for thursday agrotech...i have got 40plus fishes scientific name to remember and a lot of technical name for planting to know...arrrrhhh...

deleting space for brain cells..

2:55 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT

Haiz...its so saddening...1st paper bybridoma was already a piece of shit...emo..really...i am like so dead...see my coffin?

forget about it and concentrate on others? i am like bad luck today!!!! i lost a bear...emo...today is bad luck...haiz...hope tmr will be better...really feel like crying...but really no mood, no strength, no tears to cry...

freaking...i will study hard de...not i will..i already am....

7:30 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

life has been hectic...
very hectic...
my brain seem like bursting,
like a cell lysing..
so many things to do,
yet i am catching a flu...
spare me for the moment of truth,
that i really need to study too..

being a student is hard,
being a good student is harder,
being a studious good student who excel in everything is hardest...

the freakingly thing about life as a student is group work..
having good group-mates is a blessing...
having group mate tat say,
just edit yourself,
simply pisses you off and increase your stress level...

hello~
not as if you are the only one that need to study...
so we decided to be cruel and bad...
and i simply just draw the line...
the line of work...

MST is round the corner...
and i see my grave lying there...
welcome to hell...
it tells me so...
soon i will be dead all over...
even so...
i am working hard so as to die a beautiful death...
and not die like a crushed rat...

all i can say is..
my mind is blank~

tell me wat to do~

9:47 AM sHaRiLyN LiM