long time to blog le...tiring!!!

i still thought can rest, study, and do homework for the remaining 2 weeks, sadly, call back to do project...arrrrrhhhhh...sian~

though sian, but i kind of enjoy it...study study study...glad i found a new studying partner...yeah...but trio like so not free...wahaha...so i source for new study partners... fun and tiring..wahaha...

parents have been a bit bo chup me le...dunno why...like a lot of proposal approve by them, ????? recently have been going out late, bring friend home, go friend home..until 8? mummy also approve...i wonder why..maybe cos they are not home too...i have been going out...cos i ahte to be in an empty home...i am always looking forward to being at home, to go home as i know my family will be there...but recently it has been a quiet house..so..i also go ut dun wanna go home..it is wat i expected since gor go NS...still i make the effort to wait for my parents to eat dinner together...i might put on weight cos of all the 10pm dinner eating...wahaha...cos, i just did not want to see the 2 folks eat dinner alone...guess that is the simplest thing i can do...

recently, STUDY!STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY
have occupy so much of my life...reminds me of my secondary school life...i still wanna go uni...i still wanna study...i have a dream..a dream to fulfill...where i belong..where my passion is...i have a dream to live on...this year might seem hard and streeful, but i will hold on to the end and reach my goal...ganbatte!!!

thursday, go settle some fyp stuff, den go env club..feel so odd there...kinda out of place..so bur myself in my notes...very little people come..dunno what to say also..same place same room, different people bring a different feeling...i miss those times..in there felt so weird...listen listen, stare stare, duno wat to say...can say one say...cannt help one den dun help...say finish, those suppose to come, never come, some come, some late, so i poofed disappear, dun belong there le, cos dun feel welcome...like jie jie say..let go bahx... to ur ganbatte on ur event, dun be a disappointment, realistic a bit, and see far...ganbatte, i believe ur can do it..

yesterday, i had a bad dream...i dreamt a friend of mine died, a year ago...and its aniversary was weird, the coffin was dug out, his body was still fine...suddenly he open his eyes and stared into me...after that i could not rmb..the next scene was at my sec sch, at his classroom, i was with friend, that friend of mine was in the classroom and dashed out and chase after us, suddenly he grabbed my hand and told me to leave this world with him...i held onto my the other friend and screamed, then i woke up in perspiration...did not dare to move an inch.. so today i call upon a friend..whom i have not call for a long time..to hear him well and good... i hope so...

i crapped so much...wahaha...

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