is it something wrong with me?
i realise, i am always sitting alone~
i realise i dun have a group of friends...
i realise friends abandon me...
i realise i feel lonely during breaks,
i realise friendship are always lower than relationship
i realise my mood goes together with the weather,
i realise i miss those times in a school relationship
i realise life without seniors are bad,
i realise in here in my heart i am truly lonely
i realise i have abandon myself
i realise i have seen reality

but~

why am i sitting alone?
why am i feeling sad?
why do i feel like crying?
why do i feel so outcasted?
why do i feel i belong to no where?
why i cannt find the purpose of my life

still~

i believe i have seniors that love me,
i believe there is a place in this world for me,
i believe there is a purpose of living
i believe i have friends
i believe i am not sitting here alone,

still~

when i turn and look, i saw no one but my shadow,
and the drizzling of rain mixed wit my tears...

i have always ask fate~ why is it me?
no matter where i go, i always find myself sitting alone..
though the reasons of me sitting alone is different..
but i always see myself sitting alone...
when will i not sit alone?

can i turn clock back to 2 years ago?
where there is someone there for me..
there is a group of friends with me,
there is a place call 2nd home for me,
where i always look forward to breaks,
where i always love going to 2nd home,
where i always have him to guide me,
where i have always not sit alone...

the answer is: I cant~

to you..
i am just a substitute
a substitute of him not being there in class for u,
being there during breaks where he cant be there,
i am just a substitute for him,
just a substitute so u wont sit alone in class,
a substitute to talk to u when he is not around,
a mere substitute that u can abandon during breaks,
just to be with him...
u have shown me friendship is just a substitute for relationship,
you have shown me i am a substitute..


live with it, is wat fate tells me~

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