yesterday nv blog..

cos yesterday was one of my unlucky day...

at ITP get nagged for things tat are not my doings...

could not get into GEMS in the afternoon...

go home, get scolded for something which is not my fault...

cos of that, no mood to register the GEMS i want..so now have to wait till thursday..

with all that it spoiled my day..

The only good thing about yesterday was:
Stanley gave me A...

All that affected me, crashed my world at nite..and crash someone's heart.

Today I am feeling a lot better. After a good night sleep for 5 hours and 2 very nice smses in the morning. Actually kind of reluctant to go to work, suddenly see no meaning in life. Thanks to Diace, a new friend i made. In her, i see a surge of strong will power, that was cos she is not normal. She is abnormal, though she is 21 but she looks like a 11 year old kid. She did not despise herself even though her sister of my age despise her, in her I see a strong will power to live on. I don't think i should be weaker than her, since i am normal, so lets cherish our own life. No matter how sucky it is, we are better than a lot of people there is no worse life. So what if i get scolded for the things i never do, just smile, laugh at it and forget all about it. Let it go, I believe i will be a happier person. No point brooding over it. I shall have this stronger will and pursue what i want, who i want to be.

I am still searching who i want to be, and what i want.

Thanks Diace, in you I see how I should encourage myself.

ganbatte..Hopefully today will be a better day! It is 3days to end of ITP!

Today is 7th October, and it is Zain's birthday, so I wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERE! MAy all your wishes come true.....

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