blogging time!

hmmm...after posting up the pics of yesterday outing, and placing it on msn there seem to be people asking why never jio them..haha..sorry it was a mini outing..so we did not wanna call alot of ppl..actually only me and xuan, but decided to bring 小孩子 along. Next time we have a mass outing again ok?

had a lot of thoughts today, filling my brain, killing a lot of brain cells too..i have been saying a lot of vulgarities these few days..over someone hateful..not my family members nor my friends. Just 1 colleague that recently came, who pisses me off. Guess all i can do now is to swallow even though i don't wish to. But I don't want my efforts of getting an "A" to be wash down the drain. Whatever it is, I HATE HIM.

Most family today will have family day today bahx since it is a SUNDAY. My family? Nah...bros and dad went to work, left me and mum. Today me and mummy were making some bread thingy, fried one. Taste rather nice, but soon after cooking she is off bring those food to daddy and all the workers working. We seem to be turning the clock back where daddy works on SUNDAY too, having little time accompanying me. Well, at least the difference is I understand the whole situation and don't blame him. I would wish to be there to help out too, but..the usual thing of "you are a girl, don't want you to dirty your hand" always being pat onto my head. But he did not really totally stop me, at least i remembered once getting my hands all dirty from all the polishing of body kits, and carrying the tires up and down from the lorry. That was the 1st and the last. Well maybe when I get my driving license he would allow me to. Speaking of that, my Birthday is just around 2 months plus away. That is family matter..

Speaking of family, are you guys working as a family too? Here i am referring to reducing the usage of electricity. It has shot up to about 21% deadly..and for most family there will be rebate...there is non for mine, especially where we are going through a rough patch. So, now everyone in my family is going green, not because they are supporting me. Is to work a way to reduce unnecessary electricity wastage. Whatever it is, still they are indirectly supporting going green. I believe not only for my family, many other families too are working hard on reducing electricity due to the reality of the bills. Maybe that is another way of making people realize that they must save electricity indirectly saving the Earth. Well I am just glad that they are going green too..

coming off from family, took a small walk to the mama shop in the morning to help my mummy buy flour..the walk itself remind me so much memories. Afterall i have been walking that path for almost 10 years without realizing time had flied. The roads are same, the buildings are the same, the green forest are the same. But the person walking pass is different. I remember walking with the maid as my mummy feel unsafe to allow me walk alone as it is quite dark at night, to she allow me to walk, then to i am cycling there, to now back to walking. Memories shot me, of the times where i will skate scoot behind my bros whenever we go to the bukit timah nature reserve, the runs that we use to have. speaking of which, i have not walk that path for months..

everything has change, unknowingly, the empty plot of land across the road has now flourish to be a big building. The mama shop i am going have changed a number of hands. How long can we stay un changed? each time i walk that path each thoughts are different. I wonder what will be my next thought when i walk that path again.

currently now i left with 1 and a 1/2 years in poly..i wonder will it mark the end of my education, hopefully not..i still do not wish to face the whole social world. As stanley said, it is a man stab man world. I am not ready. In this short 1 and 1/2 years, i wish to enjoy it if it is going to mark the end. There are so many things which i have not done as a student. the camping trips i been is less than 1 hand. I still want to go LTC and get an experience. I still wanna learn to be a good leader before i enter into the social world. I still wanna complete my NYAA in my poly life. Honestly, it has been months since i have been physically detached from ENV Club. I have been so inactive, till i have no longer say it with pride that i am an env member. I still wish to go back there, to have fun, to joke around and to create happy memories which remind everyone that knows me that, I have lived before. Not only that, but to have fun and saving the Earth at the same time. The unseen heroes. Or am i only fated to be a sai kang warrior. Even so, i am happy being a sai kang warrior, at least i enjoy myself, and i am happy being one. =D I wonder how can i go back...I don't wish to have any regrets in poly the way i did in secondary. At least being a sai kang warrior let me know i did my part and i am contented!

It is the last 5 days remaining of ITP! I am glad!! woohoo..i cant wait to get back to school having the lots of fun again!Studying is still the best!!! still i will probably miss everyone in Bentoli, maybe excluding HIM. I will miss joking with violet, seeing kwan panicking, listening and crapping from Stanley who has taught me a lot of "reality", Philip's beautiful voice, auntie's loud voice and her care, Dr. Raj's good morning and Tang's flirting. If i ahve the time, i will visit you guys!

today is danza's 18th birthday, even if i wish him a happy birthday here, he won't see it. He is probably spending it with kenneith and gang. still lets wish him:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
may all your wishes come true.. ^.^

~~~Lets stop here, it is getting draggy..~~~~~

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