oops...so many days never update! haha...

saturday was national day...but me, marcus, and alcina stay home and bombed people's tag board with fireworks...cos they are all out to have fun and no one is defending their cbox haha...nothing much though...was brought to telok blangah to have some praying things...saw planes flying here and there...jsut hope next year i can spend my national day out...had a dinner full of shells again...

sunday...
sports day! yeah...early morning was brought to CCK's sports complex..went to the gym and had a great, well tortured workout..haha...den we went to sch to play badminton before it start to pour heavily...wanted to go kent ridge park walk..but one of the boys was tired le...so we did not torture him any longer...headed back home and took a rest...before i was brought out again to have dinner...crabs again...haha...

monday...
test again..biostats..duno why...mood crashed the whole day...dun ask me too...damn it...biostats did not went as well as it should...after that mood affected even more...luckily after that went to clubhs meet victor, he and his lame joke, and of course his hello panda...hahaha...den it was home sweet home..

at home..dinner time was dangerous..den say want to do biostats PBL, in the end, went in and out of trans mode..den fell aslp in front of my laptop...damn it...must i live with this kind of damn life.

i hate myself...
i hate myself for being stupid...
i tried hard enough...
but still all i will be facing is failure..
once again history is about to repeat...
disappointment is what my family would be seeing...
i just blame myself for being such a failure..
a disappointment..
i am tired of trying...
i am tired of working hard...
tired is the word that describe my feelings now...
pain is also another word...
but words cant fully describe wat my body and brain is battling...
it will be a failure battle..
i am ready to raise the white flag..

8:12 PM sHaRiLyN LiM