yesterday went out aroundearly afternoon and never came home till today early morning.it was a day where me and my family will remember for the rest of our lives. it was my grandfathes death aniversary. One year ago, with a flick of fate's wand, the very next second, that breathe became the last. He no longer speak, what was left was just a cold hard shell.

I was reminincing the whole day, with every tick of the clock, it ignit the every piece of memory on what had happen on that very day. Tears had rolled, which clearly show that my effort of being cold and unfeeling was utterly useless, and it had also shown i am still a human.

We were at telok blangah, having the ritual thingy, the whole place fitted into the whole funeral scene, the one that struck the memory was the big paper house, which was much taller than me and wider, occupying the void deck. In front was pic of my grandmother and grandfather. In my 17years, i witness both their funerals, but my grandmothers one was when i was very young.

We did not do the burning till 1am, i was very tired, already collapsing soon, placing the paper house in a super big cage, together with the incense paper we folded for months. My family kneeled, we stared at the fire, all i saw was red, green and yellow flame. Witnessing all this seems to have place a full stop in my memory, as if he had tell me, it is time to move on from there.

So here is a chunk of words for my grandfather:
with the flick of the fate's wand,
you were release,
but had changed my life.

it had force my life to be without you,
i no longer felt the love you gave,
but the only thing i knew was,
you had lived in my heart.

though then you were a burden,
but taking care of you was my fortune,
I had no regrets having you s my grandfather,
if there is next life,
i don't mind being your granddaughter once more.

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Enough of grandfather le...i got a name for dan dan's bear...it is call "NAD" it is "NADDY(naughty) NAD" just like its giver...and also today the we bid goodbye to one of the pups, took pic of another pup, it is the female one:

We kind of dun wish to go, but still we hope you can find a good home, Bye bye...


This is girl, her eyes are so small...

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