hmmm...i am wondering what has been going around my friends? afterall i have been kind of living in my own world for the past 2 weeks, as i was sick and kind of stoning, kind of not in the reality. So now I am back into the reality, i hope. I just went around reading people's blog and wondered, what has happen? why are so many of them feeling so dejected, and what has happen to the club?

Here i want to send my well wishes to these people:
#sean
#pei xuan
#mei hoon
#Huiru
#students in DBT/2A/03
#victor
#alcina
#benny

To some mention above, dont feel so sad and dejected over studies, there is still time to make amendmence, though every test is important, but what is done is done, we cant change much about it. Dun feel urself as being too stupid to be able to cope with the school work. If you are able to attend to the level up to SP then you should not feel too bad about yourself. As long as you know you have done your best, dont brood over it le. And to those who have piles of projects till you are unable to breathe, try your best! Projects are never easy to clear, but once it is cleared you will feel the sense of sastisfaction!

What has exactly happen to the club, i am almost clue-less. As no one seem to have update me about it. neither have I shown much concern about it since I left my stand, kind of withdraw myself from it. But I do hope that the club can continue to stand, and hang on. With those few people holding on, believing in it, I know you guys can carry on. I seriously feeling so guilty to leave you guys, and now feeling so helpless being unable to help. But i will never say "if only..." cos i can never change back time. Still I would say my heart is with you guys, though my moral support is quite useless, or should I say very useless. But I do hope you guys can ganbette on. I will be back next semester. At least I hope, and i am already giving my best shot in it.

To everyone in Singapore Polytechnic, ganbette in Mid Semester Test! To the students in Ngee Ann Poly, more like to my brothers, ganbette for your common test next week.They had indeed influence me alot by studying in front of me, making me feel guilty for watching tv. =P

6:54 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

this is the 101 post! cannot imagine i have crapped so much. But since today is the 1st day of holidays! this post will be crappier...

hmmm...actually got crappy theory, but alrdy forgot about it le. Hmm...let me show a diease common in plants, which the naming is pretty cool. It is call the bakanae disease,those who learn jap, or know jap should know what it meant. This disease is found in plants mainly in rice. The plants will grow very very tall, but will not produce seeds at all. Wahaha...that is why they say the plant is baka.

Another thingy that we talk about is, why people say sotong is blur? er, actually sotong very smart de. haha..but they say because sotong has emission of ink den cover the face, so cannot see, that is why blur blur de. So the blur like sotong comes about. How true I dun noe.

Next, if you realise SP does not have T13, hmmm...dun even think it is demolish, cause it is not even build before. Why is T11A beside T14, and shouldnt be T11A be next to T10, but they are wide apart. So if T11A is beside T14 shouldnt it be call T13, and T11A be beside moberly (moberly use to be T11, i heard from a Staff). Hmmm...ever wondered? honestly i never wonder until i was told. =D

then the theory of chicken comes 1st or egg comes 1st. chicken evolve from dinosaur, so there shouldnt be things like chicken comes 1st or egg comes 1st. Should be dinosaur comes 1st or dinosaur egg comes 1st? *crapped*

Hmmm...enough of questions ask. Oh ya, me and my friends were talk about flowers, trees etc. Hmmm...if females are flowers, and trees are guys, grasses are non female, non male, den who is the land? what does that mean if the land is INFERTILE. is the land the environment? er...then what about the animals? who are they? some times theories are hard to create.

Oh i remember what is the crappy theory i wanted to blog about. Got to do with today's lesson, so DBT readers, read this and see whether it can help you memories plant science better:

~Ethylene is a GAS at room temperature.
~It is given out by plants when they are too stress (which means plants fart is ethylene)
~They level of GAS production is higher when it is about to senescent (die) (the older you are the more fart the plant release)
~Ethylene gas can cause another fruit to ripe if place near (the influencing power of the fart is so strong that it can cause the fruit next to it to expel out the riping)
~silver thiosulphate can delay the withering of flowers expose to ethylene (so silver tiosulphate serve as a mask, a perfume, but the plant will still eventually die of suffocation of GAS)
~ but one special group of plants (the pineapples) they like the ethylene alot (hmmm..they like the smell of the fart?)
~ ethrel ---it releases ethylene GAS!
~too much of this GAS can cause the leaves to leave the plant. (strong?)

So who say plants dun FART, it is just that they do it silently and smell-less. Wahaha...*sorry for the crude word used =P*

One more last tihing, got to do with upcoming MST and holidays, there are 2 situation here:
1) MST 1st then holiday
2) holiday 1st den MST

Sounds the same? cos also need to take MST, but the different is:
1) 先苦后甜，苦中带甜
2）先甜后苦，甜中带苦
See the difference? and it is alot of difference! wahaha...though it looks kind of in difference.

*that is all for today, it is crappy theories + questions. =D*

*enjoy your holidays, and ganbette for MST!*

*hope you like the new blog skin too!*

10:06 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

this is the 100th post. So to those who have been reading, u have read 100th post of my life! wahaha...hmmm..this post will not be much different from any other post. Or should I make it wordy with the continuous story writing? hmmm...let me finish writing about the great things that happen with this 2 days. No need me to say today is thursday (i seem to have started the past few post with the day)

yesterday was graduation day for the gradutes. '|' amoung the pools of graduates stand upon the greats of SP Environment club -- tat hong, kenneth, shun shen, hong chi, ming chun, gaven, and many many more. Did you manage to capture a picture with them as memories, cos all of them look so different in formal attire. and to capture their last few moments before they enter into NS. Did take pictures with tat hong and kenneth, then the remaining time was me being the photographer.=D to capture the moments. Overall it was not a too bad of a day for me =D And lunch was with pricilla and aloysius, at last me and priscilla manage to eat ice cream! so this is a picture of our great ice cream that we have been craving for. =D

today, reach school at 9:30am, a bit too early, so sat down and read applied microbiology. Following at 10am i had an appointment with the councellor, er, you can say I was there because i need to be there, and i am following instructions, but the councellor was not as bad as i feared. we will be having another session though. we ended the chat around 11am, so with the remaining tme i help out at SAA with simple task. headed for lesson at 11:30am.

In practical class, my lab partner never change to be my supervisor. So he sat there do nothing but watch me do things. Some times i duno whether to thank him or to feel tht he is being bad. As with him not doing things, i learn quite a number of skills to do things alone like holding 2 tubes on one hand and pipetting at the same time. While others had the lab partner opening the tube for them. He being bad is, at times when i really need the help he still does not help. Haix.

After that went to have lunch with priscilla and aloysius. then we have applied micro, i am so happy that i could finish the paper within that 1 hour, of course with the help of "talaro" wahaha...

Call my mummy after class ended, cause I did not bring my wallet to school today, dad send me to school, i did not realise until i reach school. So mummy was nice to drive to school and fetch me from the bus stop. If not i would be walking home, which i actually intend to. but did not, cos mummy came to fetch me. =D

That is all for the day.

Story:

The truth has been revealed, she was an unwanted child who pop into this world without having a known direction. When she was young, she craved so much for her parents to love her like how others parents did to their child. Then she was felt with both envy and jealousy. Since young she grows in her own world, ignoring things that happen to her. Just like a flower growing in a bell like bottle seen in the Beauty and the Beast. She is the flower, and her home is the bottle. Her mother never love her like how she did for her 2 brothers. That's her family life, she hardly see her dad, cos he comes back late at night when she is asleep, she only remembering him pop-ing in her room and covering her with blankets like how most dad does.

15years old going on to 16years old, crushless? She had a deep crush, which do her harm. She fell for him since secondary 1, but how much does this girl knows about the word call "LOVE"? She fell deeper and deeper for this guy, even though he never responded to her. His smile which look so sweet was a drug that make her happy for the day, but addictive too. She crave for it more as days goes by. Trying to create coincidence to bump into him. How will she rehabilate from his "drug"? or will she fall deeper into this piece of LOVE?

5:24 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

wOW it is already tueday and it is ending. Hmm...time flies. Lets start with sunday, was folding incense paper while having some bonding time with bros as we watch tv together in the afternoon, who were debating on whether we should order canadian pizza, or macdonald. In the end we did not. Our parents were staying in the room for the whole day. Lunch was prepared by my dad,very long nv taste his cooking le. Dinner was plain and simple, not cook by me though. Dont know why did not have the correct mood to cook, so i never cook. But the great thing for the day was we had tiramisu for dessert.

Monday was a tight day for me, had lessons packed, but teacher release us early thus we had more time to eat lunch. And of course I was trying to be panick for the test on tuesday, but cant seem to get panick, so I was calmed all the way even until today. Was playing with my rubik cube, and took some childish photo of mono and priscilla cj7, created a storyline out of it. Oh ya, ice cream doesnt seem to be fated for me and priscilla, cos we wanted to eat ice cream, and the stall does not have cup for ice cream. The other time we wanted to eat banana split but there was no banana for spliting, and the ice cream was water cream cos it melt. Sad.

Mono: Wow! Cj7 brain looks so interesting, cool...


Mono: Let me take a closer look...
cj7: Not too close, in case u drop in..


*mono drop in*
Mono: arh, help me, I am drowning in cj7 brain juice!
cj7: get out of my brain! I told u to be careful!

Tuesday, as my 2 pactical lessons was cancelled, i was only in school for biostats test. As i said, i couldnt get myself to panick, so i was calm even in the exam room. My online was done pretty well, and I am so surprised too. Erm, the rest of my classmates did ok, not tat bad too. We all disperse at 10am. I went and meet sean at FC1, he was with meh meh and gang. So sit down chat with him for a while. He headed for class and i went to clubhs to do my work. Shortly at the clubhs, zhi hao came along. It was going to be 12pm soon. Had ask benny out for lunch, sms-ed alcina, so she came along too. In the end, we watch benny eat, while zhi hao and alcina were busying having a guessing game. We also talk about zhi hao giving up the whole forest becos of a flower, that is so uneco! Benny was blur blur. It is great that he is. Wahaha...Alcina left to say hi to shi min and go meet her friend at moberly, zhi hao went for class. I and benny sit down and chat for a while to catch up on life. Den we disperse cos he had class. Went back to the club, was doing my stuff and dacai pop in to say hi, before rushing off again. After a while he came back and say hi and chatted for a while. From there I went home with ice kacang for the maid and my lunch.

Was suppose to meet up with shang ming though, it is his graduation day today but he isnt there. Cos he did not sign up. Was suppose to meet him, den duno why push here and there. In the end got meet, I went home, had lunch den go westmall meet him. We found a place to sit and chatted for a while. Time to catch up with friends again. It has been quite some time since I met him too. Bought some groceries and headed back home. He was saying abt me changing already since the day we met. Really? maybe. Is it suppose to be a good thing or bad?

To zhi hao and alcina, dun guess le la. No point guessing also, guess correct no prize de. Guess correct I also wont tell u it is correct, but guess wrong i will tell u it is wrong. wahaha...Cos it is (the title of my background music.) So no point guessing too.That is all for today, tomorrow will be a better day!

*congrates, to all graduates, for graduating!*

5:55 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

actually there is nothing much for me to blog. Though I am no longer with environment club le, but still on going green-ing. Recently, my family has been going green too, not too sure the reason behind it, but i am glad that they are doing their small part for the environment. Including the maid at home, she has been collecting the plastic bottles, cans etc for the recycling company to collect. Bros has been selling scrape metal and cardboards. Auntie has been giving away stuff for recycling too. So glad that all these is going around and fitting it into my surrounding at home. As for mummy, the nagging part usually comes when the electricity is ongoing and no one is using it. Which is a great thing because NEA has been trying to promote to reduce the usage of wastage of elctricity. I really really do hope to go back into the environment club and do more things there. I believe they will fully support me then =) Env you are one step higher and getting rid of the mindset of "environmentalists are rubbish collectors." so proud of you guys. Ganbette!

I am considering of taking piano classes. Erm, since young I never really learn anything outside my academics. Recently has been inspire to play the piano. Hmmm, but at the moment dun think will be taking, maybe wait till semester break. There is so many things I wanna learn, sign language, skates, piano, dance, yoga and more handicrafts. Still studies is more important. Env continue to go green!=)

9:59 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

yesterday was thursday!

Morning my fever fully subsided! So happy, wahaaha! But cough and flu still persist =| I also had 4 and 1/2 hour break! Cos it is even week! did some data-sheeting with camilla and had a bowl of porriage. Then I went off to clubhs to meet xuan on our fornightly date, but pon reaching clubhs saw victor there, shortly xuan and sean came too. Sean volunteered for me and xuan to give him mani-cure, so this is our art work(hmmm, so long nv put pics up le) :






Stay there till my lesson start. Went back there at 3:30pm with them still there doing the raft. Stay there a while more and me and xuan left for home le. We also came out with a crappy thingy cos we were craving for sushi:

1) sushi-ing
2) sushi-ly
3) sushi-ed
4) sushi-ation
5) sushi-tive

Another is tako:

1) tako-Ya-ing
2) tako-ly
3) tako-ed (sound like scared in malay)
4) tako-ation
5) tako-tive

Mono:

1) mono-ing
2) mono-ly
3) Mono-ed
4) mono-ation
5) mono-tative

*craps*

Today is Friday! It is a test day for plant science, 1st test for the academic year. Hmm..how is the paper? *no comments* Heard from xuan that they were trying to raft and it floated on water, but when I went there after my test, they were already out of water, =( so i did not manage to sit on it. The people in the clubhs are, sean, meh meh and meh meh friend + rachel. Busying with the raft, sean was wet? hmmm...damp i should say. Waited for xuan to come to take her book then we left le. From there I headed home le on the bus, i realise the bus's light was kinda of weird, cos it is red in colour:



That is all for today, tml is saturday, so do take good rest for those that are sick or falling sick. Ending off with 2 pics of mono and friend, taken quite some time back:

8:40 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Today is Wednesday!

Yesterday morning I was running a fever of 38 degree. I ignore it and headed for school. During biostats I was still able to hold on for the 1st hour, but after that I was in the trans mode. Hmm...my whole world seem to have turn cloudy, thks to Priscilla who accompanied me to walk to the bus stop. Sorry to Sean, cos I was suppose to accompany him for lunch, and did not manage to make it. Upon reaching home, i simply collapse on my bed, and went into deep sleep. Until daddy came in and woke me up cos my room is like an oven, vry hot! Took my temperature, it read 39degree. He brought me down to the living room and i just collapse on the sofa. He was asking me why am i crying, but iwas not, it was just that fluid in my body just flowed from my nose and eyes i could not control it. He cook 2 eggs and rub my body with it + a silver coin in it. Then I felt much much better. Still I curled up like a ball on the sofa in deep sleep. Was woken by mummy to eat my lunch (porriage) took a spoonful of it and did not want it anymore. I was given medicine (3 pills) and I slept on the sofa for hours. When I woke up it was nearing dinner, drank barley water and water chestnut + sugarcane. My whole body is aching, just like how daddy dewcribe it when he fell sick. Mummy was also sick. It was porriage for dinner too, ate a bit too, did not have the appetite, what ever went in, feel like coming out. Took my temperature, it read 39.1degree. It was worrying for mummy and daddy. They gave me pills to eat and told me to go to bed and cover myself with blanket to sweat it out. I slept soundly till daddy came in and adjusted the fan and cover the blanket over my leg, I was awoken by it. Took my tempeature it read 38.8degree. Phew, at least it drpped by a little. Mummy handed me a wet towel and told me to wipe myself with it cos i was sweating all over, and also a cup of herbal tea. Though it doesnt taste great but i drank it. Dozed back to bed at 10pm.

The next time I woke up was today morning 6++am..I got myself out of bed and went down to the sofa to sleep. Saw gors getting ready to go school and from there I miss school. Dozed back to sleep again. The next time I woke up was mummy came down, she touch my forehead. Gave me a cup of barley and urge me to wake up instead of lying down. I got up and went to my room, tidy my room and took my temperature it read 38.6degree. Change my clothes which is soak in perspiration. Went down for breakfast, daddy tounch my head and ask me am i feeling better. Then the both of them went to work. From there i fell asleep again on the sofa. Waking up for less than 2 hours to take my lunch and i fell back to sleep again. Daddy came back at 2:30pm with icy cold grassjelly. =) I was so happy! Drank it up and fell back to sleep again. I did not even know he left for work at 3plus(this was told to me by my auntie). Woke up at around 4plus, went back to my room which felt like an oven. Mummy came back, asking me for my temperature, it was still consistent at 38.5degree. Drank alot of water, and had no apetite for dinner. Ate a bit only. Went to have a bath, it had never felt so good before, and now my temperature reads 37.8degree. So glad that it is going down. =) and i have got datasheets to complete after takeing more than 24hours of rest, now my world seem clearer then yesterday. Thanks to daddy and mummy care and concern, never felt so loved before. =) Daddy also said, at least we are suffering here from viral attck, unlike the ppl in Sichuan, they are suffering even more. So must ganbette in fighting the virus.


thanks =) for ur comments on cbox. that was similar to what my mum told me. But casue i value the friendship, that is why i did nto say it. It could be just another route of buddhism which isnot the way we as other buddhist think cause theirorigin is different. Their orgin is fromt Taiwan. That is why there is a slight different in the sets of beliefs. I agree with you that in every religion we are taught to be good, whether you are christian, buddist, taoist, muslim, hindu we are taught to be good it is just that the way it is brought across is different. So lets just respect it.

To zhihao, dun get too upset over it. Look at a different point of view, look at =) point of view. Maybe you can see more things and learn more things. Look at things from a broader aspect. I know you care for her, but =) did not pin pointing that she is bad kk? She/he is just sharing what she has been through.

To everyone else, please please do take care of urself, the weather is getting bad. Still we must go green to minimize the effect of the global warming or we will perish due to the heat.

>>> =) I really do want to know who you are. Care to leave your name at my e mail box?

8:01 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

today is monday! And it is a holiday! =)

Lets start with sunday! Woke up early to cooka pot of porriage and braise chicken for the family especially for daddy who only wanted to eat porriage. Went to marketing with mummy only, cos daddy is too sick to be out of bed. We headed to the market got wat we needed, and of course play with Ah Bee( the fruit stall's cat) Hurrily we head back, make the porriage hot. Call daddy to come down for lunch. Wanted to bring him go see doctor,but couldnt think of 24hr clinic, and daddy was stubborn, he did not wanted to go too. So we monitored his condition. That was sunday, nothing special happen though, at night was discussing with kah Yan over tons of our datasheets, in total i have 5 to do, have not completed half though. We talk till 1am ++

Monday! Happy vesak day! Actualy it is not suppose to be happy, after all 2 disasters happen to Myanmmar and China Sichuan. Both countries face natural disaster, but both react to it differently, who do I support? I support China, not because my ancestor come from there, but I feel that by allowing the other countries rescuers to enter into the disaster area to help is the right decision. And I salult to all the survivors and rescuers. This is not the rite time to have elections, put all politics down and focus on the saving of lives. =) Especially the children who are innocents. They dont deserve to die, they deserve the happiness that every kid has.

Today i went with Kah Yan to her 佛堂. I initally thought that it was situated in a temple. But it is not. It is stiuated in a HDB flat. The environment was quite different. My parents were not happy about it, and i shouldnt have go. How to explain, i shall not say it here. But I wont be joining her anymore in the activities bahx. It seems kind of wrong. Even though it is a Buddhism, but it is not true Buddhism. Not saying she is wrong, but I am quite dissapointed. I will walk the true Buddhism route. So I have to apologise to the Buddha for the wrong step I took today.

Shall go and make offerings of joss. Shall go to temple too. =X Shall atone my sin. Ending it off with:

Each live is strong, and fragile,
each life born has to go one day.
The innocents are children.
They deserve the children happiness that they deserve.
In anything happen, dont include the innocents.

Good nites...=)

7:02 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

hmmmmm.....troubles since to be brewing to the people around me. Now i Have 2 pairs of friends who are not happy with each other. Other then advise, and advise and advise, we are unable to solve the situation around. And of course, daddy is sick to day, today dont seem to be great day for him, so it is his off day...hardly find a day that he doesnt go to work. Once in a blue moon bahx, but today's moon is not blue. So today was a training session to cook for a sick person, and the typical food is: porriage. Wahaha...Cooking porriage is easy, but to cook a good and nutritionous one for a patient, is not as easy bahx...It took me nearly 1 hour jsut to get the porriage cooking. Allowing it to boil longer for another 30mins. But cos daddy was sleeping the whole day, so lunch became dinner. '|' I had only peanut butter bread for lunch.

wahaha...i feel like writing a story, inspire my goodybook.com haha...=) sneak preview of the story.

A 15years old going on to 16 in 1 week time, she sits in her parents car staring out of the window. She quiet, but thoughts run deep in her brain. She turn and stare at her mother, she felt so far away from her. She is her mother in name but what about in heart? That night, she sob on her bed. Her dad came in, carry in his arm he pat her back. Then the truth was revealed...will her life changed? Will her life be curse due to the myth of tear drop mole she has? How will she walk down her journey?

8:40 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

had a running session early in the morning 9am, i was stuck in the traffic jam for 45mins. Sad.. did the usual stretching...started with walking one round, and run at a constant speed for 6 rounds, ended off with 1 round of walking. By 9:45am i was done with the whole workout. Met Priscilla at FC3 for breakfast...had fish porriage and a cup of honeydew milk, priscilla was busying playing her "squishy ball ball game" on the psp. From there we headed for Molecular Genetic practical. We met aloysius outside the class and sat on the floor.

Mr Wang came and say "the floor is dirty dun sit on the floor" the 3 of us just stare at him, without any reaction. He was like "speechless" and went into his office. He came out a few times, and cover his face. He is a great lecturer with a lot of lame jokes!

At molecular genetics, my lab partner, is back to his usual, being my supervisor and watch me work. Haix...i "ren ming le" wahaha....

We ended 1hour early, so the whole class went to FC4 to have lunch. I had soup only cause i was still full with porriage. The fun part is, whenever i am having food intake with priscilla we will usually have weird combination, I had soup, she had baked rice and we both share an ice cream, and we will always lame about our food, yesterday was bak kut teh rice and today we were saying banana spilt in chinese is call: 香蕉船 isn't that banana boat? so in chinese banana spilt should be "香蕉烈"(this is just some craps)

ending off with: a Buddha saying
what is born will die
what has been gathered will dispersed
what has been accumulated will be exhausted
what has been build up will collapse
what has been high will be brought low.

~~Good Nites!~~ =D

7:21 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Monday, Tuesday were normal day other than my lab partner being so kind enough to help me with my lab work. haha...Plant science was fun as we dissected barley seeds. Erm, only remove half which have embryos. Look at slides + DRAWING! never great at art, *bleah* but still manage to draw the cell though it does not look like one. haha... Have been dropping by club house to hang around with env-ians friends. =)starting to mingle around with the 03's i mean the other half of the class, the ex 03's. Priscilla, shu yi, shan shan, joanne, Gabriel, haziq, teddy and kun cheng. Priscella, me, and shuyi shar a bowl of mango ice and hot tang yuan + bean curd on Tuesday. Cold + hot, but we are ok, no stomach-ache.

Wednesday!
had normal lessons, had lunch with Priscilla, we had chicken rice with bat ku teh soup, she was saying "got bat ku teh rice?" haha...good question,isn't tat normal rice? wahaha...

the fun part of the day!
I had a crash course session in sean and pei xuan's GEMS, it is Economics with mathematics. Their class is super guai, and i mean those very very very guai, when teacher ask question, students will volunteer to answer. I almost had nothing to write about them. sean and xuan was part of my observation too, they have contributed a great amount of things for me to write. Haha, thanks! =X will let you guys read the report once it is done. =D i left the place at 2pm, suppose to have something to attend to, but i reach there then she say postpone. Headed to clubhouse, the room was dark. Other then the cactus, orchids, and some micro-organisms, there was not a single soul seen. Haha...but shortly i step in, rachel, joyce and their free labor came in to take goodies bags. Following, pei xuan and sean also came. Rachel, joyce and their free labor left le. Leaving me, sean, and pei xuan, we were playing some "action" game. Shortly we too left that room.

The 3 of us headed for T18, drop sean there as he was going for a lesson on "learning opportunities" xuan and i wanted to join, but there was an overwhelm of people so we did not. Haha, we took MRT home, i took till bukit batok station with xuan. Headed home, and did mass printing of notes + tutorials + a lot of stuffs.

Some env-ian knows my New Chinese name, So let it out bah...i will still have to get use to it soon. Some Env-ian knows because victor ever call this name out before, because he mix pei xuan and hui ru together.

My New Chinese Name is: 林佩如

But the problem is we have not officially change the IC, and school admin stuff, so now i only write my English name on my homework. So weird without 佩芸 Around. haha...but as Dacai say, Sharilyn is still Sharilyn haha...still I will miss my grasses on the cloud.

Ending it off with:

*Once an Env-ian, always one at heart* =)

10:13 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

have not been blogging for the past 2 days..not because I am giving up on this blog, but i lack of the mood to blog...in short ~plain lazy~

friday...
another normal school day. Plus a few events which cause me to feel so pissed. Dun really remembering doing anything great other then taking the night for resting.

Saturday...
did housework! had a mass cleaning of my room. Settled some documents thingy. Headed down to grandmother house for dinner, while the adults + my bro playing majong, i sat there either watching tv, or anime. Soon fell asleep there waiting for them to deliver me home. That night, went home at 1am. (more like sunday already)

Sunday
Mothers' day! Which is today! Happy Mother's day to all mothers. Sms-ed my "adopted" mother, auntie fariha. Present my gift to my biological mother. Went to the jurong east market! Did not see anything interesting though. Cook noodles for lunch. The today's new recipe learn was "nor hiang". I wonder next week what will i learn. Have not tried the taste as we were not home for dinner. Soon, I was brought out to the workplace, as there will be a ritual going on there and the whole family was suppose to be there. There was nothing much I can do to help, so got zhi hao to call me and test me on plant science and see how much i can remember. Erm, got many questions not very accurately correct but the idea was around there. Until my auntie came, i had books to read! wahaha..she was reading the book on "the purpose of life" which i saw at my grandmother house on saturday. So i was asking her about the other book i saw "preparing death and helping the dying" in buddhist perspective. Read the first 7 pages of the book and found it utmost nice and interesting. Shall finish it soon. It is not very thick.

as the ritual carry on, i was sitting on the lorry,not knowing wat to do. all of a sudden i was call by the person. (how do u call him) erm...i also duno how to address him. this is the 2nd time he is calling for me, and not my bros. He was asking me quite a number of questions and i answered as requested. He read my palm like it was a book and spoke a number of things, there was no generalisation, the things spoken were things that only i knew. He requested me to write my chinese name down. He found that there is something wrong with it and was not agreeable to it. My mother was called upon and explained the meaning of my name. My parents requested him to give me a new name so he change my 芸 away. I am still not used to my new name, shall put it on hold.

If my name is confirmed to be changed, that means my IC has to change and quite a umber of procedures has to be undergo including school admin, ezlink etc. I still wish to stick to the name that my mum has given to me.

Ending it off with:

11:13 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

today in the morning had OSRM practical...we were making aspirin today...had a fair bit of fun when the guys were playing with the electromagnetic stirrer.. while we were waiting, Mr Chan was chatting with us that most chemist will not live more then 60years even if did, will be suffering from illness and most probably is cancer, due to the chemical we are expose of, like today we were expose to concentrated HCl fume, but deal it in the fumehood, even that the chances of us brething in is also quite high. Many people will not choose the chemist route, cause die younger. But even so, there are still a number of people will chose to walk that route even though they know the consequences. I guess i am part of the minority bahx, i still want to walk the chemist route, even though i know i wont live long. But in any parts of life there is always scarifices bahx...whats more in the world of science.

today had 4 and a 1/2 hour break. Went to the library to helpkah yan with her datasheets, had lunch with zhi hao, den study molecular genetics at moberly, till xuan come with her tako. took pic of her tako with tako wrapper. went to fc1 and had baked potato with her, chat on alot of stuffs, till 230pm, attend class for 1 hour, went to westmall boght some stuffs. home sweet home...

end today' post with tako pictures:

8:28 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

initially i thought today was suppose to be another normal day fo school. hmmmm...not really bahx..had normal lessons hang around with priscilla chat with her alot, went to the lab to see our results, remember the food at my previous post? it is very clean, there was hardly any colonies to count, it was so empty. I was scared at 1st, but i double check with dawn that hers was also like this. So the conclusion was:

those who take the green nasi lemak had nothing for results,
those who took white rice have a lot of bacteria to count.
But the next research is going to be a great one. Jia You!

Went to the donation blood drive today with Kah Yan after our lunch, wanted to donate my blood cos the say Otype O blood type not enough..sad..i was at the point when i was already waiting the nurse to pierce when she say i was not eligible, cos my vein are too fine, scare it will burst...but instead rachel went..me and xuan xuan, plus tako and mono accompany her trying to distract her so we told lame jokes, and a lot of stuff to make her laugh and relax. But she was very brave wahaha...*saluate* let the pictures speak:

Rachel *shy shy*

pumping hard...

the blood is out...

the blood has flow down...

it has gone into the bag...

the bag half filled...

still filling...

almost done!


after that we went back to clubhouse, waited for xuan's to packed her bag, then we went home. had a guest coming to visit, which is "girl girl" she grown quite big le, and she look like ding sing when ding ding was younger:

This is when girl girl is still a pup:


Now she grown up:

7:01 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

yesterday was busying tar tar-sheeping...i mean datasheets, majorty of DBT students of 03 are like busying with datasheets, as there were 3 of it due to today. 1 group datasheet, and 2 individual ones. The other 2 classes were busy too with the group datasheets, and mostly it is only 1 person busying. What happen was that 1 had to do the datasheet that was claimed as "group". I am not the only one that was pissed, people like zhi hao, kah yan, dawn and many more are pretty pissed. Cos it is said to be group but only 1 person is doing. On top of it the marks are shared by 3 people, so the other 2 jsut leech on that one. The worse happening is when the results are not very "beautiful" the person doing gets the blame.Haiz, i guess this problem is always un-avoidable. This is not the 1st time that we are encountering this, so just swollow bahx...Did finish the goup datasheet at 12plus nearly 1am. So today lesson was, quite tiring for me. Biostats was the one that I nearly can't pull through, the other 2 lessons were practical so moving around keeps me more awake. In Biochem we were handling egg, cos we wanted the albumin in the egg white. So was havving fun with just taking the egg white out from the egg, there was a lot of waiting time so peeled the egg shells. Then we did separation of the protein from haemoglobin,which was fun too:




Egg white after the 1st centrifugation:


The drop of buffer coming out from the column:

The brown and pink are protein from haemoglobin:

we collected them in test tubes:




So that was biochemical techniques, I had my fair share of knowledge during the applied microbiology practical too. Today we had a new agar, but still prefer mackonkey and nutrient agar cos they got chicken essence smell, the new agar we came across is Baird Parker agar, it smells something like bird nest. Did not really like the smell, but we were not suppose to smell it too. Did alot of spread plate, 3 huge stack of it,

plus we look at S. aureus, the one that we knew of was white colonies, but the one we saw was black colonies which was pretty cool to us.




On top of all that we had food microbiology, we had nasi lemak for experiment. Wanna know how nasi lemak looks like in ur stomach? Look at the picture taken, we did not get someone to eat it and vomit it out, we allow the stomacher to do the job.



I realise with this kind of weather, a lot of us are falling sick. In class there was a lot of people coughing, and sutomo is also losing his voice le. Must take care bahx...Not only to our body but also to the Mother Earth. Coause of us not loving our her, thus the hot weather is a warning to us bahx...

Got a nice quote(a chunk of words) from my 2nd brother:

Behind every problem is a cause.
Never go back to the cause of a problem.
Because the cause of the problem will never be a solution to solve that problem.
Without the cause there won't be any problem.

wahaha...cool? i wonder did he came out with this himself...=)

8:15 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Yesterday, had a pleasant msn chatting session with joysi, from her learn alot of things, and believe she also understand some things bahx...but still i am very afraid to see the counsellor. Hearing to see the counsellor make my stomach churned...

look at the baby orchid:



it is call DEMETRIUS, the meaning?
It's a boy's name pronounced de-MEE-tree-us.
It is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "follower of Demeter".
Mythology: Demeter is the Greek goddess of corn and harvest.

And also 2 pics of dang dang sticking out his tongue when aslp..



thats all for today...

1:26 PM sHaRiLyN LiM

Had happen to look into Joysi Blog and saw her post to me, shall reply it to her here:

But i kind of don't know how to reply to you. Erm..the picture wasn't taken in the main lib it was at home.

Parts of what you say are quite true and some parts which I think you will understand how i feel too. I was also an "accident" on the verge of abortion i was still kept cos my uncle wanted a child. I was given away right after birth. And a lot of quarrels between my uncle and parents over me. This is what i heard from my dad. I believe you will sort of know how it feels.

I have always convince myself that my mum loves me, and she loves me. So does my dad who had always had to be the middle person. It was wrong on my part to say that my mum hates me, (even if she does) or to say i hate my mother. No matter what, she still did had me in her womb for 10 months, though i never remember of her carrying me in her arms, or even a hug. On labour day, I went to my grandmother house and flip some photo albums. I was wrong to say there wasn't any photo of my mum carrying me when I was a kid, there was a few of it, around 5 of it.

My mother loves me, but just that she show it in a different way. If she did not care she would not have scolded me, she won't even care to see whether i am home. She would not had wanted me to stay at home, cos she is afraid I would get hurt outside. All she was trying to do was to shelter/protect me. Even though there is a big gap between us, she is still my biological mother the one who gave birth to me. She is concern for my grades as I had faired way different from my 2 brothers.

As for how i got enlightened? One is from joysi's blog. Thanks for knocking some senses into me. =) the other is from my dad. He came in this morning and "showered" some care and concern, and he also said not to hate my mother. Cos after-all she is still my mother and she did it for my own good. I will not wait till my parents passed away (touch wood) then i cry and regret, (then i would be no diff from my uncles and aunts)

"they always think that we are troubled when we are silent. i see nothing wrong in shutting up because i am not that much a fan in talking." Quoted from joysi blog. Not really true for my case, as I had always been quiet at home.

"i am biase i like tako better cos tako has a small tako on his head." mono dun have a small mono on his head.


It is also true that i kind of distant from a few of the people i called friends. What had happened?? Sorry for neglecting you guys, but still thanks for the concern. and of course to joysi too, though her words are not very nice to hear, but it had knocked some (alot) of senses into me.

Lets get back to reality, erm..i mean the real reality. No matter how imperfect any family is, it is still a family, cause a family is made of humans that are imperfect.

Read an online book at this website, which also enlighten me:
http://www.goodybooks.com/journey.htm

My mother is more than a lady, she is my mother, my brothers' mother, my father's wife, my grandmother's daughter, my aunts' sister, an employer. In short she is a super-lady just like Ms Angel.

9:19 AM sHaRiLyN LiM

seems to be updating blog once every 2 days...suppose to blog yesterday, but did not had the correct "mode" to do so. did not do much yesterday (labour day). A bunch of env-ians (SP ENV) went for an outing. But i was excluded, wahaha...i wanted to go but labour day, is for doing labour things for me...jkjk... went down in the morning to fold incense paper, so there was not enough time to go, and i knew i couldn't go, so I did not bother asking. After i folded the papers, went back to my room. (which i was scolded too, for beingin my room too long'|') did drawing of a rose for my practical datasheet, that itself took 1 hour! (cos i am not a very artistic person, tat is why drawing is indeed a tedious task =P) after drawing i was back to "stoning" mode. only then i was told to go bath and we went to grandma house.

at grandma hs, i sat at the living room for a while, and went to the room and close myself in there too.. doing wat? read a whole series of 小叮当 comics, which soon i fell asleep. the rest? playing majong...so i was invisible then.

dinner was held at temasak club's restaurant. aged under 21 and below 1 table, above 21 went another table. so me, my 2 bros and jess was catergories togther with the 3 brats. (no choice) they were indeed noisy and spoilt to the end, we manage to get them off by asking them to go toilet, for that few minutes it was peaceful. They wanted to tell jokes, (laming) but their jokes wee so damn cold. though at some point we did laugh. Points like "chao chao, sun zi, zhu ge liang sit aeroplanes (that generation where got plane? still got parachute de) then we had a great laugh. Still got, jump down from the plane never die tat part also very funny. the rest was colder then the air con. i still love the part where my brothers told jokes, the both of them really make me have stomache. wahaha... hmmmm...but as usual the 2 cousin did not report, one is agnes and alex. their sister ---} jess went "typical" haha...and we knew. So it wasnt really a renuion dinner afterall... tat was all for the day which was call labour day.

today! interesting findings for me too. indeed caught me in surprise. in the middle of a class i receive victor's sms "ms angel wants to see you" i went "er...why?" he went "duno" was not really bothered by it, but had a bad feeling about it =X had normal lessons. until GEMS which ended slightly earlier, so wanted to drop by Ms angel office and see what was she looking for me, but she was not in *full stop* wahaha...

after tat went to the library with kah yan to borrow some books for our datasheets. Till 5pm and went to report to ms angel, saw victor there, and we both did "detention" cos we had to wait for Ms Angel, she had something important to settled. soon after tat it was my turn. It was a chit chatting session wih her, and wahaha...hmmmm....couldnt answer alot of her questions, cos "duno" how to answer. haix...=X then mummy called, asking me why am i still not back. told her that i was with Ms Angel. Chit chat with Ms angel more. Hmmmm....wahaha...she knew something which she is not suppose too...just becos she had access to my blog...=X wahaha....(she even know i do cooking =X)(pssss....this is a warning to "env-ians") wahaha...she will read it tooo...(will she kill me?) no choice we are at light she is at dark, we never know when she pop in to read. no wonder my counter has bee rising, and the tag board still seem blank blank de =X looks like i have readers that "come quietly and goes quietly too =X" (that includes victor who even went to the extend of printing my blog out =X)

still i will keep this blog going on, but i will take care of "censorship" hmmm...though will kind of feel uneasy to blog as we know a person of higher authority is watching.

do i really have to go for counselling? noooo....history is repeating, hopefully this counsellor does not vomit blood and needs to go counselling him/herself...really must go? Can pon? =X

reach home with more scoldings, which i just stare and say "orh" back to my room i went. Just had dinner, it was round II from papa, i just kept quiet eating my dinner get over it and left the table asap. How would you want me to stay on the table and talk to them, I can't.

I am sorry Ms angel I can't seem to accomplish what you had advise me to do, i rather i stay quiet and let them say/scold/nag, I do not want to argue with them that is why i am keeping quiet. Cos i know that I can be a rebellious kid if i were to start arguing with them, and i do not want it to happen. That is why I staying cold,cool or you can say the "dun bother" kind of attitude. This is just my way of showing that i still respect them as my parents by not arguing with them. I did not slash with the intention to take my own life, just to remind myself I am still a human cos i have become so cold towards alot of things including death, either because i am just tired or i do not want to get myself involve, or the way you put it in "reality has sunk in"

I know it can be quite dissappointing to know a 13 pointers has got such a grade, I will do my best. And of course I need to find back the fighting spirit that I had when I first step into Singapore Polytechnic.

I can win alot of people with my true heart, with my happy attitude but my parents does not fall into these "people" catergory. If this is fated then there is nothing much I can do. But still I respect them as my parents. Just like I respect Ms Angel more then an officer since i shared quite a number of things with you. Mothers' Day is coming and i still do not know what to do about it.

Before i end this entry take a look at the picture below.

cute? i saw it when i was on the bus home:

7:17 PM sHaRiLyN LiM