Why i Am moody...Many SP ENV CLUB main com, non main com must be wondering why i moody ba. Actually there are 3 reasons to it, most of your know 1 of it, the 4 people know 2 of it. None know 3 of it.
1) I believe most of your know that i miss my grandfather alot. I truly does. Still missing. This can't be help. Quoted from tat hong: Time will heal everyting. I do hope what you say will be true. I do hope.
2) Someone whom i just entrusted my trust to just stab me hard at my back. The big joke is, i dun even know i am stab. Till a 3rd party comes and tell me. Secondly time being stabbed, 1st time not as serious as this. OUCH! It does not hurt in my back, it hurts in my heart. Why this person stab? I duno. All this while this person has been the one playing this game, i am just a chess piece in the game. This person has been the mastermind. The idiotic thing is, i still need to face this person. My life is entangled with this person for at least another 1 year or 2 years. How u want me to face this person. DAMN IT!
3)Family have been slight chao-tic since CNY eve. Father getting angry with mum. Brothers heck care. Me locking myself in my room. What the hell, u call this family? U call this CNY? Why does all bad things have to happen at one shot. CNY ler, renunion dinner that did not last more then 30 mins, what renunion is this? Words not spoken at all. this is not CNY.
I am mainly affect by the 1st 2 reasons. This is part and parcel of growing up. When i tot i saw element (dun ask who he is,other den me, Only 1 other person know) i was like stone. The feeling, the pain which i tot healed, never really healed. Gor, u sure time heal everyting? Den why do i still 念念不忘 going to 2 years le.
The person who stab me? all along this person was truly good. only to realise i am made use. Blissful as this person can be. I hate myself, why do i still have to treat this person good? When i noe i got stabbed i cried real hard. cause this person is the 2nd last person i thought who stabbed me. Is stabbing real fun? All i can say is really painful, tat hong, how long will it take to heal? I seriously thinking how u want me to face this person and work with this person? I am forcing myself. I dun want to hate this person, but i cant help it. I am a human too. I need to swollow hard.
This person is a HE (dont ask who)
10:56 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
