Renunion DinnerThks, ...V2.
But how many of us can do it wat u just state? Can you do it? How long? 1 day? 1 month? 1 year?
I jsut finish my renunion dinner which doesnt feel it is one. I believe most of your are having your dinner now as i am blogging this. My renunion dinner duration: 30mins.
Everyone was pretty silence, I believe everyone misses ah gong. It just doesn't feel like chinese new year for me. Tomorrow is chinese new year, I am jsut simply staying at home doing work. There is nothing for me to do. I can't go other people's house to bai nian. Not because I cannot go other people'shouse to bai nian that is making me sad. Is the thought of why i cant go tat is making me sad.
...V2 can u understand? It is not THAT EASY TO SAY LET GO AND U CAN DO IT! It takes a time. TIME! If i can totally let go of ah gong when he is only gone not long ago, what is the damn difference between me and my unfillial uncles and aunt who can laugh and joke after seeing their dad lying there dead. I am a human, my ah gong watch me grew up, I watch him from a healthy old man who can walk, till he fall sick, till he is senile, till he unable to get up, till his deathbed, till his coffin, till his burial. I am a human who is growing up, growing up takes time, letting go takes time.
But the question is how LONG!!!!
today is new year eve, and tears have rolled down my cheek 3 times. All because i miss him. I truly miss his presences.
11:49 AM sHaRiLyN LiM
