The day for stoning with deep current running under...today i stayed at home and stone. Nothing much, I also duno what to do. Other then watching anime, tv and work, there is nothing for me to do. Feel so itch hand today, feel like baking cookies. But no ingredients and dont feel like going out to buy, so stay home stone.
On top of that i realise, yakult and coffee cannot drink too much. I am already experiencing side effects. Too much coffee will cause one's stomach to tun upside down and head for the toilet after each cup. Now my stomach is so weak, i must quit coffee and stick back to milo. Yakult? cannot take more then 3 bottles, or you will really clean your digestive system.
Mood wise? Thanks benny for dropping ur sms during lunch time. Cos today kept myself in room the whole day. So mood today not any better, but today no tears. Just no smiles. I hope i can smile when i go back to school on Monday, I promise Ms Angel that i will be who i am the 2 weeks before when she saw me.
feeling part? I trying to put a stop to all feelings. I am going to be in a numb state. Forget all the past, whatever that has bygone let it go. I want to start afresh now. Be who i am, and not letting people control who i am. From all this happenings for the past weeks, i know that i have friends who truly support me. Though they might not be the perfect friends, at least i do hope they are true. As for the ones that betray me? I will forgive them, no point trying to get to revenge, as Shang Ming say, there is no point in doing so. As victor has said, treat the person even better, cause one day i want to let them know, in order to have true friends we must be true friends 1st.
Thus here, i wanna take the chance to thank MEI HOON, you are one which i truly see as a true friend whom will hold me when i fall. Plus, SHANG MING, who was a great source of encouragements whenever i fall. VICTOR, who taught me how to be happy, though i did not really use it much, but i appreciate your effort. DACAI, cannot forget you thanks for acting like babybear to cheer me up and your morning (3am) msn. RACHEL for your occasional care and concern. The last person to thank is MS ANGEL! She isnt really that bad as we think, she was the one that cause me to think deeply. Thanks!
On Monday, hopefully you will see the SHARILYN who once stand up after her fall. I will stand on my feet once more. I promise!
9:32 PM sHaRiLyN LiM
