this entry is especially reminded by my god brother: TAT HONG!!!

from his blog entries on the baby he is taking care of.

I personally really envy of babies and toddlers. Not only because they are carefree, but more on how they face life and the world. Observe them, they learn how to speak, how to walk, how to eat and many many things. They never fail to accomplish them. They walk they cry, and crawl up again. Look at adults, many had fall, and never able to had the will power to climb up again. You might say that they are two different matters, but if many of us can be like them to have that will power and not ashamed of falling down, do not care about what others look at us things would be better.

Babies, toddlers comes in as a clean piece of papers like all of us were. But as we grow, our paper gets greyer and greyer because we learn more things, and see the disgusted sight of humans. Many actually learn those actions too. We can never be like babies and infants, for the fact it is a man- eat man world. We have to be stronger and stronger or we will be eaten. Thus all the disgusted actions are categories under "survival skills". How many back stab their friends? How many are really who they are? How many talk bad about others? How many truly wants to be your friend and not out to make use of you?

Honestly, I don't know. This world is so scary, till I want to retreat from it but I can't. I envy those babies and toddlers about their "horror - free" lives, but how long this period going to last. Because seeing all this "UN-human" actions are part and parcel of growing up, it is just a matter of time that they will be expose to all this UN-fairy like tale truth. Just like how I was expose.

How long can innocents last? How much does innocents cost? Can they feed you? The answer is "no" thus many scarfices their innocents for wealth, fame etc. Given to me? I would want my innocents.

But I am robbed of it, cause growing up = losing of innocents. I am force to grow up.

If u were given a chance would you keep your innocents?

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